loner's heaven

2011-07-08T16:18:00.000-07:00

I know blogging is such a 19th century thing now, but I don't understand why one would like to subject themselves to a character limit of 140 (No, I have nothing against Twitter).

Recently lots of things happened between Germaine and me. I just hope things will turn out well. There are some things I really like about her, she's really a nice and kind-hearted girl and I feel really at ease when I'm with her.

But somehow I can't seem to resonate with her way of thinking sometimes. She's 4 years younger, that's probably why. Perhaps she thinks of me in this way too, I'm not sure. Maybe she really wishes to complete her studies and starting working cos she's really fed up with school? Or perhaps she just has an anger / stress management issue.

It's ok if you go for a drink or club occasionally, afterall when I was at that age, I did much crazier things too and I don't think I want to "restrict" her in any way. But I really cannot accept the fact that my girlfriend goes out in the middle of the night to a club / pub to drink with some guy friends.

Even when I know nothing's gonna happen, I don't like the thought. I don't even want to think about it. It sucks. It makes me contemplate whether I should carry on this relationship. I'm not young anymore. I wish to settle down too. But I don't want to rush into things.

2011-04-17T05:42:00.000-07:00

2010-11-03T17:47:00.000-07:00

Fighting the Civil War against the Brand Guerillas:
A.K.A. Communication with the internal audience (people want to hear vs you want them to hear):

1. What people want to hear:

a. Apart from falling under the same product category, do all the Business Units (BUs) have anything else in common, ie;

i. Markets / Target Audience / Use of product - All the products seem to be a stand-alone, they DO NOT complement one another

ii. Top Management Business Direction - How can we work together to bring them under the same umbrella as one whole suite of solution?

iii. Top Management Business Direction - Diverse Target Audience / Market / Product Group = Divided Brand Management views = Company losing its identity.

b. More info about the other business units

i. Overall business developments – get the bigger picture of the world around

ii. Latest developments – which are the new products relevant to me?

1. Which relevant products can complement my products?

2. How will their development affect me?

c. How much business is the company doing, each BU specifically.

i. Sales Figures / Current market situations

ii. Markets might be different, but the problems faced might be similar

iii. Review meetings might have shared these common issues between the BU Heads.

d. How healthy is their market in the current situation?

i. What are the upcoming trends? / Market statistics / analysis

ii. Any area of growth to develop / possible area of threat?

1. Predict / foretell future (Info to be shared by the individual BU PIC

e. How can the data in the newsletter become a sales / enhancement tool for them?

i. Sales figures? / Success stories?

ii. Embedded videos – Technology?

iii. Can these tools be passed to dealers as sales tools directly?

1. Minimal / no adaptation is needed

2. Straightforward – brochures (chop dealer’s info and use)

iv. How do we know that our marketing efforts have paid off?

1. Surveys / Feedback / Success Stories

2. Sales figures / Dealership requests / Distributorship requests

3. Sales Companies

a. Web Enquiries

b. Sales activities

i. Advertising / online / print

ii. Materials requests

1. Source files / brochures

4. Web traffic / enquiries

a. SEM / SEO

b. Contact Us

2. What you want them to hear:

a. Value in brand management

i. How does the company stand to benefit in having a consistent image and identity

1. Consistent image = trust and image building = better business

2. Strong brand image = trust from dealers / customers (2 ways)

b. Importance of Marketing Communications in augmenting sales activities (but not over-preaching)

i. Marcom ensures consistency in the brand management aspect

ii. Marcom is seen as the brand specialist

1. They know what you can do / cannot do.

2. They provide valuable advices on how you can enhance your overall image / sales promotions / events.

a. Even suggests sales tools which are possible for use

3. They augment sales activities with website / online and print advertisement

iii. They help to highlight the important aspects in a product, ensuring 100% accuracy and hit in marketing a product.

c. Ownership of brand management is shared; they have to understand, they can bypass Marcom at any point in time. But the right choice would have to be to consult Marcom on all branding issues first.

i. Though bypassing will not have any immediate effects / penalties per se. But results are imminent and extremely damaging.

ii. Losing brand identity = losing image consistency = losing trust of customers = lost of market shares = lost of revenues = closing down of company.

3. Dealer’s brand guide:

a. Why should they care about your consistent image?

b. How to motivate them to adhere to the brand guide?

i. How will company’s Brand consistency benefit the partners?

1. Company doing well = Partners will do well.

2. Partners are also brand ambassadors of the Company’s Brand.

a. Think along this line.

c. Put yourself in the dealer’s shoes, why should you care about the “upstream” when what is more important to you is actually the sales figures?

i. Partners depend on Company;

1. Sales support tools – what can we provide them with?

2. Products

ii. Company depend on Partners;

1. Brand management

2. Product sales

2010-09-18T08:45:00.001-07:00

I thought I would never be able to open my heart to another person again, if ever, it would have to be one similar to you. Behaves like you, eats like you, talks like you, smiles like you and even walks like you?!

But till she came into my life. Although I'm still not sure whether she thinks the same way i do for her, but so far, our times together have always been good.

There are times where I thought, when did I even started to have feelings for her? She is not even like you! Nothing in resemblance at all. I can't believe how it strikes me sometimes. Though she is kind at heart just like you, she certainly doesn't resemble you any single bit at all.

There are times when I still did compared her to you, but the conclusions is always this, "both of you are different." You were just a dream that I had when we were younger. True feelings were involved and we were so deeply in love with one another once, but now, we don't even talk online.

That's ok. Cos as long as you're happy, I wish you happiness. That being said, means I have also learnt to let go of my feelings for you. It also symbolises that I have also grown up from the person you used to know last time.

Let there be no grudges, no hate, also no love as I say this final goodbye to you.

At the same time, I'm filling my heart with feelings that I have for her. Though she is always busy with her school stuffs, she never fails to reply my sms-es, no matter how late it might be.

Sometimes out of the blue, I would SMS her, just to remind her that I'm thinking of her. I find myself racing to the phone when it rings or occasionally checking my phone to see if I have missed any of her messages.

Am I falling for her? I certainly do not know. How to know her feelings?

2010-05-25T07:23:00.000-07:00

Life's good so far. Work's good and life's not bad.

Recently I've got to know that my Marketing Communications Department is actually going to be closed down and the MarCom members will be absorbed into some other groups.

As far as I'm concerned, I am going to be absorbed to do market analysis, which will be something interesting, because by far~ I'm only involved in the communications portion of it. I haven't got much chance to really get down to do the real marketing stuffs.

Anyway, it's good because it's a new exposure, new job scope. Let's hope a new pay package is discussed as well =P

I guess I'm pretty lucky to be transferred to the other division, at least the boss is not someone who is being hated by everyone else. FYI - my current one is, anyway.

So that's all the updates about work. Now about personal life; actually nothing much as well. But thanks for bringing "Joy" to my life.

2010-05-20T07:15:00.000-07:00

http://www.askmen.com

2010-05-03T02:53:00.000-07:00

原来我的心...在你决定放弃我的那一天...就死了...

Am I still harbouring any hopes?

2010-03-05T07:32:00.000-08:00

2010-02-22T03:50:00.000-08:00

2010-02-18T18:20:00.001-08:00

2010-02-16T19:00:00.001-08:00

鬼故事好可怖

She's cute~

2010-02-16T05:47:00.000-08:00

Some Random postings. Haha.

2010-02-16T04:35:00.000-08:00

How To Build Matchstick Rockets - Celebrity bloopers here

Singapore needs to increase its standards of social etiquette.

Went to visit the God of Fortune today and realised that alot of Singaporeans are not giving up their seats to those who needs it more than them.

Manners aside, most guys are not even gentlemanly enough to give up their seats to ladies.

In a society where everyone cares about no one, if you can even show that little bit of courtesy towards those around you, it'll make this world a much nicer place!

Singapore needs to increase its service standards.

The service standards of Singapore needs to increase, even if you are buying a $3.50 Tze-Char Fried Rice at the Coffee shop at night.

Due to the CNY, many people are eating out and that has indeed put pressure on the service staff to endure the heat and the ever-demanding crowd. But the bottom line is the you are the service staff and I am the customer.

I'm not saying that a customer is always right, but look at this, if ever in the event that someone should burst out and throw their temper, it should be the customer.

Under the kind of circumstances where a service staff is busy, and a hungry customer comes over to order / check if the food is ready because he's been waiting for very long, it's a very sticky situation.

Just picture this. The service staff is a match stick. The customer, a flame. When the 2 comes into close contact, it's only a matter of time before the match stick bursts into flames.

Thinking back, looking at it from another point of view, only the better ones will excel in times of adversity. If they're really that good, why're they still working in a coffeeshop and not a posh restaurant?

Also, in the high standard society in Singapore, be glad if you get your pack of fried rice at $3.50 and not get a stomachache.

2010-02-13T21:06:00.000-08:00

2010-02-08T05:46:00.000-08:00

2010-02-08T05:10:00.001-08:00

It's gonna take fucking 2 years plus to transfer the files.

2010-02-07T23:59:00.000-08:00

2010-02-06T08:32:00.000-08:00

All hell breaks loose again and the interrogation will continue.

Timing la timing.

2010-02-06T07:53:00.000-08:00

As the time goes by, things tend to wear off.

Like a tyre of a car, like the sole of your shoes, like rocking lying by the river bed.

Like the relationship that has gone cold for a while...

However strong ur feelings for each other, it will wear off. Whatever that keeps it going, is just the responsibility that keeps it going.

Is it true that nothing lasts forever?

Is Liang Shan Bo and Zhu Ying Tai's story only available in the fables and fairytales?

Is it true that u and I, can only be friends...?

2010-02-06T07:37:00.000-08:00

One who is humble, is one who laughs at himself.

One who is a thinker, is one who has foresight.

One who cares for others, is one who puts others before self.

One who works hard, is one who's going to reap the rewards.

One who is lazy, is one who will suffer the hunger for needs.

One who understands the boss, is one who will climb up the ladder of success faster.

One who is honest, is some one who has never been caught.

2010-02-06T07:22:00.000-08:00

2010-01-26T00:01:00.001-08:00

2010-01-01T19:23:00.000-08:00

Jackson stepped into the room and saw his girl friend tied to a chair with the robber standing beside her. He pointed to the pistol on the table beside him.

"Pick it up!" Ordered the masked man.

"I said pick it up now!" He ordered again, this point pushing the .38 pistol against the side of her forehead.

Seeing his beloved in such pain, he bent down to pick up the pistol on the floor, bearing the excruciating pain as blood oozed from his shin.

"Put it to your brain, Blow it!" commanded the robber.

"Will you really let her go?!" He asked.

"Shut your trap and take it like a man! Do it!" the robber commanded the second time.

"No! Please! Kill me instead! Jackson! No! Don't do it!" pleaded the girl.

As he held the gun to the side of his head, his eyes welled up with tears. Not because he is going to die. Rather, it's the last time that he is going to see his beloved girl and not knowing whether his death can be exchanged for his girl's life.

All these while, when these thoughts were flashing through his head, his girl was pleading him, but it all sounded so minute given the intense internal struggle that he is having inside of him.

The question remains, his girl might not live, even if he pulls the trigger. But he had no choice. It would mean a definite death for his girl if he do not follow the robber's instructions. At least there was a chance and he had to take it.

"Do it!" the agitated man raised his pistol up high and gave a hard knock on the girl's hind head.

"No, please! I'll do it!" pleaded Jackson. "Don't hurt her! I'll do it!"

Taking in a deep breath, Jackson braced himself for what was going to come. In a few seconds, it'll be over.

*Bang!

2 simultaneous gunshots were heard.

Jackson fell to the ground, so did the robber.

"Jackson!" the girl shrieked while she lost control of herself.

"Go! Go! Go!" the Storm Team charged in.

"Suspect is wounded and one victim dead." was radioed through the Comms.

Thunderous applause came immediately after that.

The "victims" and "injured" robbers arose from the ground and stepped forward to greet the crowd and receive their standing ovation. The show, is finally over~

2009-12-30T04:17:00.000-08:00

I watched as the rescue rope that I held on slipped through my fingers.

The fall was short. But images of the past flashed before me.

The impact of the landing hit me hard. I think I broke a rib, and punctured my lung, cause every breath that I'm drawing hurts.

I can't feel my legs, but I suppose it's bleeding. My legs feel so numb.

I can't move my hands to support myself up, as my shoulders and elbows are bent in such an awkward angle.

My vision is dyed red, I think it's the blood that's flowed into my eyes.

I'm losing consciousness.. I'm losing myself... I don't wanna die this way...

I wanna get up! I wanna get moving!

But. In life, do I have a choice?

2009-12-18T21:36:00.000-08:00

Found an article I wrote some time back in Poly Year 1..

Topic: Failure

Enough of all the craps about achieving successes in your life. All of us are going to die of boredom by reading on if I am to write about this trash again.

Today I have the real stuffs that might intrigue some interest in you with me here.

Introducing the “Essential Rules to Failing in Life”

Rule number one; adopt a serious attitude problem in life. Always be stubborn and persistent in doing things your own way. Do not give a hood to what others say about you. After all, the society nowadays emphasize quite a bit on “personal style”, isn’t it? Be very determined to show the world that what you are doing is right, even at the expense of becoming the enemy of the state. “Never give up!” should always be the first thing on your mind when people tell you about the shortcomings of your work or products. Just tell yourself that they are just some stupid people who do not know how to appreciate your hard work.

Rule number two; forget about heeding advices from your parents, teachers or peers. They are the ones who will help you to be successful, which defeats the purpose of me telling you all these rules today. Please turn a deaf ear to what they are saying to you, then you will be able to fail, if you are lucky, you might even fail badly for your exams. I believe most of us have had enough of all the preaching that our teachers, parents or peers have given us. We simply cannot stand it anymore, can we?

Rule number three; always be proud of what you are doing, to add on it, display an air of superiority. Be confident of yourself; do not be affected by what others think of you or your work. If you think you are able to do it, they will learn to appreciate your hard work one day. After all, why do you always have to change yourself for others? Why can’t they change themselves to suit you, right? How will they understand you when they are not in your shoes? Do not be afraid when the world turn against you, stand firm on your grounds, I will give you my support. I can understand the agony of geniuses being misunderstood by others. Because I have been through the same thing. So do not worry when you are in such a situation, I am experiencing the same thing here too.

Rule number three; never admit that it is your fault. No matter what happens, never own up to your own mistakes or failures. That will be the last thing that you will ever do. By admitting to your mistakes, it will definitely bring about embarrassment. Everybody are afraid of failure and the embarrassment that it brings about. So try your best to push the blame onto other people or factors. You can blame whoever and whatever you wish to. Blame it on the lousy lightings in the examination hall when you fail in an exam, blame it on the problematic computer when you are unable to submit your proposal to your boss on time. Whatever it is, it is not your fault. Do whatever thing possible, because “losing face” is probably the worse thing to happen on any human being on this planet.

Rule number four; always remember that you cannot do it and trust me, my pal, you will never make it! Mentality is probably the most powerful thing that can affect a human. None of us are born losers, neither are we born winners! Always never try to think that you are able to do something, when you know you are unable to do it. Why waste your time and effort doing all these things when you know you can’t do it? All of us are clever people, aren’t we? We will definitely not waste our time doing these stupid things.

Rule number four; do not hope for success. The definition of success is simply the opposite of failure and since my point here is to introduce to you the rules to failing, so please comply with these rules and stop reading articles that will affect your way of thinking as those are totally trash. Have you ever noticed books that teaches people on how to succeed in life are still left unsold on the shelves in the bookshops? Those are the books that will not even help you a single bit. They are just books written by people who are lucky enough to succeed. They are trying to earn money by writing some trash here, hoping that some day somebody will buy their books. But us, being the intelligent geniuses, will definitely not believe their craps, would we?

Rule number five; after each failure, moan and cry about it to let people know that you have really put in effort in what you did but still failed. Maybe we can make a big “hoo-ha” about our failures and others might review what we have done and probably even accept our work. It is really hard to let people really understand the excruciating pain we experience in our heart when we face rejection by the society, even though we think that what we have done is perfectly flawless.

The last things that I have to say to us, intelligent people, is that, nobody like to fail actually. But failure is probably part and parcel of our life and like it or not, failure is inevitable in our lives. All of us will just have to learn to face them as we go on in life.
Success, everybody yearns for it. Nobody will dislike it. All we have to do is to simply break the rules stated above and we, the geniuses, will definitely be the successful people of tomorrow. I am sure, we again, the elites, would be able to build a better society for ourselves tomorrow.

2009-11-26T09:11:00.000-08:00

If a picture paints a thousand words, then let the picture do the talking.

2009-11-22T02:23:00.000-08:00

2009-10-31T06:19:00.000-07:00

2009-10-31T04:00:00.002-07:00

Don't give me that shit.

Who cares if you're fucked up. If you can't even handle yourself, I'll fuck you, simple.

Pissed off by you. All of you.

Prove that you're worthy.

2009-10-12T08:38:00.000-07:00

My heart hurts and the feeling sucks..

2009-10-09T20:16:00.000-07:00

Haha. 2 videos. Same song. Different Style. Hehe.

2009-10-08T05:41:00.000-07:00

Give u an inch, you ask for a yard.

Treat you with repect, you act like a reatard.

Tell you ur expectations are too high, you just keep on looking up.

All in all, you do deserve a good fuck.

2009-10-07T16:48:00.001-07:00

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/1009752/1/.html

2009-09-25T07:56:00.000-07:00

I feel so much like asking you.

Will you... Give me a chance... Again?

2009-09-22T07:22:00.000-07:00

Memories of the past comes back tonight.

She told me all of a sudden that she is no longer with him. I let her down once.

Now she still confides in me. What does it mean?

I left her the last time round because I think she was immature. But looking back, the immature one, is me.

Why did I compare her with the other 'her'?

Why is it always regret after whatever that I have done?

Why is it that my heart still aches seeing her spoil her health by drinking and numbing herself?

Why is it that I have so many questions?

Why?

Y?

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Though they say, "好马不吃回头草". But I was never a "好马" in the first place. Haha.

2009-09-22T07:13:00.000-07:00

If Doomsday had a preview, how would it look like?

2009-08-01T02:13:00.000-07:00

Didn't do much things today except go to school for SJ. I got promoted!

haha. wat the hell.. somemore with the warrant rank. all only after I went for OTC and that my commissioning parade is only 2 months down the road. haha. Nvm la. After my promotion, I'll pass the warrant rank to somebody else lo. hehe.

Indeed, the role of playing the devil is not that easy. But once u get the hang of it you can do it. It just keeps coming. hehe.

Say some prayers for the kids for this coming ATC, for it is going to be the toughest and most mentally challenging camp YET.

'TEKAN' will be the only word and theme for this camp and we will all live by it.

T - Tenacity
E - Endurance
K - Knowledge
A - Adaptability
N - Never say die

Remember, whatever that doesn't kill you will only make you stronger.

cheung Weng once told me, that Greenview Secondary's St. John oso got nobody wanna join. Why? Not because they not good. In fact, they have been getting CAA Gold. Actually is because they are too siong already. that's why people don't join.

When will our Corps be at that standard?

In fact, what is OUR standard?

2009-07-15T05:44:00.000-07:00

fucking you. idiot!

if u're not happy, can always go get ur mum to co-star and film some porn with you. dun come here and be rude to other people!

fucking u are earning so much money and u dare to be rude!

hello. I'm helping u out here, ok. I'm doing u a favour, not to be a person for u to vent ur anger on! fucking PCB, CCB, KNNBCCB.

I hope there's retribution for you. Even if u dun get it, your children will get it. everybody down ur family line will get it.

I hope u lead a long life. So that you will live to see everyone around die in misery.

Fucking you.

2009-06-26T09:23:00.000-07:00

The days gone by, but I continued to live in the days where you were still by my side..

The pain is never fading. The time might have passed on, but I am left behind. Still re-living the days when I was with you.

I thought I have already moved on...

I thought you are already a passer-by gone past...

I thought I have already forgotten you...

I thought you have already been erased from my life...

I thought I can carry on with my normal life...

So it all turned out to be fake. I am a weakling. I have been lying to myself all this while!

2009-06-16T06:12:00.000-07:00

家乐

2009-06-02T06:36:00.000-07:00

Is the world coming to an end?
Or is the end, coming to the world?

2009-05-26T06:51:00.000-07:00

2009-05-25T21:48:00.000-07:00

Damn bo liao -_-'

2009-05-25T19:32:00.000-07:00

Seems like this person is siao on about KSJ. but is held back by the slacking fellow cadets.

Who the hell is he / she. Back after 1 year, with Passion? Or Vengeance?

2009-05-25T05:05:00.001-07:00

2009-05-23T22:16:00.000-07:00

MQ and Me
Some guy, Simin, Yanying, some girl
This is what I mean, soaked to the balls, erm.. I mean, shoes.
That's my Tag No. haha.
The Medal.
The Medal's Backside. haha

Woohoo! Back from the 10.4km Passion Run this morning at East Coast. crazy. I reached there at 7 o'clock in the morning eh. haha.

So many people were running! I heard it's 11,000+ ppl running... but they're all seperated into different waves and flagged off at different times. So I dunno actually got how many people running.

But they flagged off my group late la, which was supposed to be start running at 7.10. We started about 7.20 like that.

So I ran from the start point to near the Mcdonald's there made a U-turn, then ran to the PA canoeing / kayaking site, I oso dunno where, made a U turn again and ran back to the start point. The run was not bad but was damn crowded. Haha.

I just realised that there are not many people who can run, cos those who ran in front in the start didn't last thru' all the way to the end and I just kept over taking everybody even though I was running at my own pace. haha.

None of the ladies I overtake caught up with me at all throughout the race, so... Phew! I managed to upkeep the reputation of us Men. haha. But those ladies who were running up in front and didn't fall back, they really can run. (Mostly aunties) haha.

I was soaked to the skin down to the balls in my own perspiration. Didn't perspire this much before so a bit uneasy during the race. Even the shoes and socks are wet.

I finished the race in exactly 1 hr. haha. Still can be improved, I suppose. Cos it's not my best timing. But nevertheless, I never walk and perservered all the way. So I'm proud of myself. haha. Ya. So everything's ok and I finished the race in one piece.

Then after that went to collect the bag and saw Yanying and Simin (Simin!) haha. So yeah. ask them to take a photo for me and my buddy then I take a photo for them as well. hehe.

I collected everything then proceeded onto Subway to have my "Brunch" then came home. haha.

Heard Kenneth's running 8 km today. Will check with him his timing. haha

2009-05-21T20:23:00.000-07:00

*Thud! Yet another one of my men landed in the mud due to the slippery ground conditions.

The troops have been for more than a 100km in the jungles for the past two rainy days. The uniform was wet and everyone was soaked to the bones; which no one knows whether it was caused by the rain or their perspiration.

Ration and water was running dangerously low and that if anymore of them were to collapse due to heat exhaustion, the person's going to die for sure.

At this junction, the commanders; even though tired still braced themselves to pushed the men on, giving them words of encouragement.

"Gentlemen, just up ahead is the enemy's base. We have to be extra careful and tactical enough not to be contacted before we reach the fence line."

As the chief called for a short briefing on the attack plan, the commanders reminded the men to keep a lookout for any irregularities in the surroundings and that should they be contacted, the 2nd-in-charge would take over the command.

"Just up ahead, gentlemen, is our objective. There is no way back now. The breaching teams would do multiple breachings on the fenceline, and once the hole is formed, we will charge in and kill the bastards, clear?"

All of a sudden, a gunshot was heard and Major Nielson's face was splattered with grey matter. All I saw was Captain Jackson falling down to the side and landed faced down into the mud.

"Contacted!" I shouted as I proned down to the ground, alongside all the other commanders.

Our cover's been blown and bullets rained on us. We have to get out of the area fast.

"Section 1....!!! Smoke out....!!!"

Soon as I shouted the command, 5 smoke grenades were thrown out from the vegetation and landed on the open patch between us and the enemy. I thanked god for the excellent training they had back in the camp for throwing grenades.

As the smoke screen is formed, I quickly shouted for all my men to do a left hook to attack from the enemy's right side.

As I got up, I saw that some of our guys were already shot and lying on the ground, shouting for help. But there was no time to waste. The medics will take care of them. Our objective now is to clear the enemy fast...

2009-05-21T20:00:00.000-07:00

Something I got from Kanny Theng's blog...

Relationships are such a peculiar thing. Like my colleague once said, "You don't marry the one u can live with. But you marry the one you can't live without."

2009-05-08T18:33:00.001-07:00

At a Glance

• Works hard, puts in long hours and keeps busy with work.

• Punctual, completes work on time.

• Detailed, meticulous and observant, quick to pick out abnormalities.

• Objective, but may appear detached.

• Does not get involve in other's personal problems.

• Not concerned with rank, title or position.

• Sees people as nice and friendly, not comfortable to wheel and deal.

• Practical, prefers to build on ideas rather than generate them.

• Orderly, methodical and systematic, takes care to plan in detail.

• Needs clear and thorough instructions, slow to act when uncertain.

While at Work

Diligence and discipline are characteristics of Mr Ong's work attitude. He is often pre-occupied with the tasks at hand. As he derives satisfaction from being immersed in work and thrives on being involved, expect Mr Ong to put in long and extended hours at work.

Time is a major concern for Mr Ong. He is frequently punctual and even early for appointments. When time is critical, he moves quickly and acts promptly. Having a sense of urgency means that Mr Ong pushes to get things done when there is a deadline and allocates time properly when planning or organising activities. He can be depended upon to get work done on schedule.

Mr Ong generally will persist with work until it is completed but may at times not complete his tasks.

Mr Ong is likely to be quality-conscious and achievement-oriented. He is motivated to produce work that is of a high standard. He is observant, quick to spot errors and critical where work is concerned. He is likely to be meticulous, careful and pre-occupied with detail.

Mr Ong is an objective person who is impartial and rational. He speaks factually and often does not involve his own feelings and emotions. He may sometimes be perceived as distant or detached.

Mr Ong is selective in lending support to others. He often remains detached and unsympathetic. Mr Ong may not regard the welfare of another person as the most important aspect of their relationship. He is not likely to want to be involved in the problems of others unless necessary.

Mr Ong is friendly and outgoing when he is with friends although he may at times prefer to be quiet.

Mr Ong selectively forms strong bonds with people although these bonds may not be very deep.

Mr Ong is moderately serious about his responsibilities and selectively takes ownership of his work.

Mr Ong does not care much about how people view him or whether they respect him or not. He focuses on what he wants to do for himself. He is unconcerned with issues of ranks, positions or titles. Status symbols are unimportant for him. He does not draw attention to himself and dresses moderately and simply.

Mr Ong sees people as friendly, reliable and honest. He is trusting and believes what people say. He tends to be unsuspecting of people.s behaviour and motives. He is uncomfortable when he has to wheel and deal.

Mr Ong's leadership qualities are moderate and he is sometimes able to get the support of people.

Intellectual matters do not interest Mr Ong. He is more concerned with practical issues than abstract theories. Mr Ong prefers to talk about useful and workable solutions than discuss hypotheses and concepts. He is more likely to build on ideas rather than generate them.

Being orderly, methodical and systematic, Mr Ong spends considerable time planning ahead and organizing activities. He ensures that programmes are scheduled properly and takes care to plan in detail. Formulating procedures and policies is his forte.

Mr Ong is generally able to express himself although not to a high degree of eloquence.

2009-03-07T18:59:00.000-08:00

My HP
At Kopi: Ken at the arcade
Wei Jian's turn!
Brothers forever: H-Two-O & White Chrysanthemum
The pack of... I dunno what.
The fried Veggie cake's really oily!
The long long... u know what.
It's as tall as Kenneth!
Larger than my shoes!
Roti John with the long thing.
Tsoon and his H2O
Ooops.. Unglam. haha

Ah~! Oil!
The amount of oil we put into our mouths... is tremendous.
The (Oily) Char Kway.

Me, bored. hehe
Taking a break

Finally done. So full~

The failed "Jump" shot.
failed "Jump" shot 2

failed "Jump" shot 3
Ken's only successful "Jump" shot =P

Meal time for the Ants!

Tried to take pictures using my camera which I bought a few days ago during the kopi session and we did alot of funny things. haha. I guess if a picture says a thousand words, than a video would say infinity about us. haha.

Anyway, it was fun. And i talk to Ken about Tagged.com

It's really good to know ppl there. haha. Anyway.. I've uploaded all the pictures of our Kopi session here. Too bad Cliff was unable to attend. If not I'm sure it would have been more fun. haha.

2009-03-04T04:27:00.000-08:00

This is the Chinese herb that my mum bought and double-boiled it...

Tonight going to book in le. First time in the army get a fucking status RMJ for 1 wk! What the fuck! Get this status can't do SOC test tml.. sian..

See how first ba. I also tired le.. Going to book in now le..

2009-03-03T17:39:00.000-08:00

Quite a nice video.

2009-02-27T14:18:00.000-08:00

Life's supposedly to be going easy on an NSF when u're just two and a half months away from your big day, the ORD date.

But look at me, I'm still going thru' the torments of hell and going outfield, attending training sessions just like my days when I was back in SISPEC as a trainee. I dun understand why people are pushing us all the way till the very last moment before we bid our final farewell to our lovely buddies and wake up from the 2-year long nightmare.

To me, it didn't really mattered that much, because my service was only 1 year and 10 months long, a whole 2 months shorter than the rest of my many peers. (Thank god! Or rather, thanks to SP for 'awarding' me with a silver award for the NAPFA test! hehe.)

Well, I'm even more glad that the worst nightmare of an infantry man, the Brunei trip, was a successful one, with no one falling out and getting seriously injured or whatsoever. But I fell and hurt my back, though. Sometimes it's hurting my so much that i couldn't really sleep.

I'm going to report sick soon and then see if I can get an X-ray and hopefully down PES, so i dun need to chiong shua anymore. So sick and tired of this shit. Two and a half months down the road, I'll be done with my part in serving the nation and I'll continue with the rest of my life. Awaking from this long nightmare is not an easy task at all, I suppose. Cos I'm rather lost as to what to do if I dun get myself enrolled into the Uni.

I've decided that office work is not that exciting for me after all, cos I like going out to meet more people. I hate being restricted in one single place.

I guess it's the same for my relationship as well, I dun stay in a single relationship for long. I think going out to meet more people and broaden my horizons would help me make a better choice and hopefully let me think of who is the one who's really suitable.

At this moment in time, I just want to take things one at a time.

My short term goal for now? Finish my NS first.

2009-02-10T18:35:00.000-08:00

OH no, not again!

COS duty was half day today.. haha. handed over my company to the people in charge then they sealed up my company.. haha. shiok.

after that, changed CV and go out le! hhehe..

it was the same thing at the bus-stop.. Banglas and Chee-na people filled up the seats, and I had to stand by the side.. I really think TIBS should increase the frequency of bus number 975!

so i boarded the bus when it came and as the seats were all taken, I remained standing..

till the bus came to the bus stop near to sunshine place, a XMM boarded the bus. I didn't notice her at first, cos the bus was like quite crowded and she's quite short.. then the crowd kept moving towards the back of the bus and then she stood in front of me. well, she's really short. haha. I think she barely hit my shoulder height ba.

she was a petite lady in her school uniform, in her hhands was something that looked like a hockey stick (Sporty! my type!) her shoulder length hair was tied up neatly in a little pony tail and her big eyes were staring right into mine. I was momentarily stunned. haha. she's cute.

my friend was beside me, i think he also noe that I was noticing this girl lo. cos he nudged me on my arm. haha.

yup. throughout the whole journey I was like standing face to face with her lo. didn't noe what to do cos we're like quite near to each other. haha. Occasionally I looked at her and realised like she was looking at me oso la. haha. quite awkward and so I smiled and she smiled back. haha.

that's the weirdest situation I ever been in lo.. -_-'

but didn't talk to her la. no chance. I read in a magazine that picking up a girl on a public transport is the worst thing u can ever do. haha. So yeah.. no chance.

2008-12-23T07:54:00.000-08:00

Taiwan de star...!!

"Tell Hannah I love her..." HAHAHA~~!!

Haha. I went to the bank today to replace my spoilt ATM card... (It splitted into two halves like the banana split I had in Swensens' last wk...) Anyway, I didn't know what happened to it. It's like Magic.

I put it in my wallet, the next time I took it out, *Poomph* It splits.

So back to the story.. I was replacing my card at OCBC Bukit Batok Branch.. Then I went in there, looking at the crowd, I supposed it's not very crowded at the banking hall upstairs, cos it's already passed the lunch hour.

So i went up and joined the queue. From afar, a staff at counter in the right corner caught my eye. (Well, for the obvious reasons...) So in my heart I was secretly counting the number of people and the progress of the staff at each individual counter.

I suddenly had a strange feeling.. Like I'm going to "kena" her like that. In fact, I was secretly hoping that she'd be the one who'll serve me. haha.. So I queued and waited.

Finally when the queue number showed "4>>>" I was damn happy. So zhun. 4D also dun have such a good opportunity. haha. Upon closer observation, her long, black silky hair seemed to glow under the spotlight at she was sitting. Her eyes, seems so mesmerising that even I (The chick magnet), got stunned for half a second.

Lucky I managed to revive myself back in time and continued with whatever I was supposed to do with her... (Which is replacing my card, of course! What else!) Ok. I 'm going to win this battle, man. haha. Looking back at her and maintaining eye contact with her was tough.

Throughout the conversation I actually felt shy talking to her, even as she's just asking normal questions. haha. I jus tried to put on a strong front acting normally. haha. And when she asked me to sign on a piece of document, I tried my best to sign my most nice looking signature on it. haha.

Then I tried to look at the name tag, wanna know her name.. But it's tough, cos the name tag's placed nicely on her left... (ermm... ) Ya la. it's there la. You won't place your name tag on you tummy area right.. So I tried to do it as discreetly as possible and I took a quick peek when she was focusing on the screen...

"Hannah Lim", it says. haha. Nice name! =)

Well, by then the card has alr been done, then I think she got called away by some staff or what, her manager came out and gave the card to me instead. (disappointing)...

But overall, their' service is quite good and efficient la. didn't have to wait for too long also. haha.

Good. OCBC! Keep up the good work! =)

2008-11-28T07:48:00.000-08:00

Had some sudden feelings coming back at this hour of the night, jus realised how useful chinese words can be when it comes to expressing feelings...

So I wrote it down in words...

<<罪后男人>>

真可惜我不是你生命里的最后那男人，
不能够带你通往那幸福的那一扇大门。。。
我们的爱终究逃不过命运摧残的齿轮，
最放不下的还是你那让人心碎的眼神。。。
你的离开让我成为了世上最伤心的人，
痛苦把我渐渐地逼向了那绝望的大门。。。
挥不散的记忆却一直在我的眼前回轮，
对于过去的那往事我已不想再去费神，
"哎，可惜呀，我已不是你生命里的那男人。。。"

This short poem describes how a guilty man feels after breaking up with his girlfriend, only to realise that he has not only lost what he loves most, but more importantly, the impact brought by the break up and how the past memories keeps on haunting him...

As he laments that he is no longer her loved one, he wishes to put behind his past and continue his life, even though he would still carry the sense of remorse and regret with him for the rest of his life......

2008-11-01T08:50:00.000-07:00

Just looking at her pics makes me happy... =)

My sleep was rudely interrupted by a sharp headache extending from the right back of my head extending all the way into the right ear drum.

Painful sia...

but anyway, it's crazy. I still went for the St John's training today.. finally finalised the newsletter and the website content. Only need to work on the back ground a little bit more.

The headache's really irritating the crap out of me...

Everything's going on quite well. but I really have a problem facing ah toot. tonight i dun think i'll be msg-ing her. better not.

somehow, I seem to have some problem dealing with my relationship with her. be it instructor-trainee, potential girlfriend, whatever.

wish this whole thing can come to an end soon. crap.

Just what did RSM say about not slinging your rifle like a guitar?

2008-10-19T00:35:00.000-07:00

Brand NEW PSP Charger for sale!!!

Dear all, I found a brand new PSP charger. (I don't need it as I alr had one). Those interested pls call this number, 96324405. Willing to sell it at $20. It's a Sony brand PSP Charger, made in Philippines, with a two-pin plug as the powerpoint connection.

Following are snapshots of the charger.

As this is the ONLY piece I'm putting up for sale, pls be quick to contact me!

2008-09-20T21:06:00.000-07:00

Dana
Felina

Random pic

Shermaine
Zoey

Zoey

Sandy

Becky

Kopi is getting a bit monotonous. But nevertheless, the guys are making an effort to gather and talk cock everytime. But last night cos Tsoon Emo-ed. So he left earlier.

Anyway, I'm not a pedophile, but destiny is pushing me towards the edge, haha.

I think these few days i'm in luck with alot of xiao mei mei. haha.

Incident 1
I was transferring some stuffs from my comp to the phone and forgot to turn off the bluetooth. After that, I went out and took a bus to Jurong from CDANS. On the bus, there came the first bluetooth incoming signal from a girl called Shermaine. I thought it came from this girl who was in front of me, with long hair, big eyes, wearing a tank-top and a pair of jeans. (btw, she's hot!)

My bluetooth name was "Guy in green" and I was the only guy in green on the bus. So it must have been for me. So I accepted the request anyway. Then when I opened the picture that this "Shermaine" sent, I got a shock. It was a XMM!

I didn't know young girls nowadays can be so proactive when coming in contact with older guys! haha.

Incident 2
I sent a wrong SMS to one of my old friend (well, it's a girl anyway) from poly. But the msg came back as "who re euu huhs?" I was wondering, this friend of mine will nv reply in such a childish way de ma. haha. So i replied, "shen yang ah~ can't rmb?"

She then went on to say she dun rmb, and that her name is Zoey. (Zoey Tay?) haha. but anyway, I couldn't believe my luck! 2 girls in a row in one day. haha. how lucky is that. but anyway, I didn't know that she's so young lei. until i ask for her Email and wanted to add her on friendster. then I was truly shocked. she's only 14! what the hell.

Jus like Suhui lo. haha. Suhui was oso 14. hehe. (But anyway, that was history)

Incident 3
I think friendster really creates alot of shit. Cos out of the blue got 2 more friend (Zoey (loh) and Sandy) request from I dunno where. XMM again~! wat the hell. I replied anyway (Didn't want to appear as impolite towards girls.)

Wat the hell. haha. I think it's a prank that someone is playing on me! hehe.

Incident 4
Now here's something to be happy about. Another 2 WOMEN (becky and dana), (not XMM, finally. Thank goodness!) I added on friendster accepted my friend request. haha. feel so happy.

Haha. Finally... To end off. With a classic pic.

2008-08-30T07:57:00.001-07:00

2008-07-26T19:42:00.000-07:00

The moment of my life..?

Two of my men are getting married, because their girlfriends are pregnant..

Sometimes I wonder, if not get married now, then when? Haha. I mean, if they dun get married before the girlfriend gives birth to the child, then when?

There are many things in which one has to complete in his lifetime. Studies, Career, Marriage, Family, Parenthood. Some people get the sequence jumbled up at certain points in life, but ultimately, these are the stages that most of us will go thru' in life.

The lucky ones will meet their soul mates and carry on with the second part of their life with company. The others...

Will I fall behind or will I move on...?

2008-06-11T00:15:00.000-07:00

That's it. The short-lived happiness of me and my girl is never meant to bloom.

Received a call today, "Hey, I think we're not meant to be together. You don't have time for me."

"Ok, you take care. Study hard. Good bye."

I think I've broken up so many times that I'm cool with it alr.

The age gap, The army, The inability to communicate. All contributed to the end of everything.

2008-05-20T00:10:00.000-07:00

Just for fun - this image has nothing to do with the blog post whatsoever.

I didn't know what happened, but somehow I seem to find comfort confiding in you...

Maybe being behind the computer gives an additional sense of security or maybe there's something in me, that tells me it's ok to share this dark secret of mine with her, because she understands?

I don't know.

It's kinda strange how we met.

"I feel like dying now" she said. Imagine someone telling you that halfway thru' ur poker game online. I freaked out. So I kinda like talked her round and everything. I even gave her my number. I gave her my number! oh god. Which part of me has gone wrong? I seldom gave my number out anyhow. haha. But somehow at that time then, I did.

But that's besides the point. The unique thing about this is I seem to see my story unfolding in her life. Maybe it's because I had experienced the same bad thing before, my heart went out to her.

As we talked more, I realised that she and I had lots of things in common. and the best thing, she loves cycling, but she can't cycle. haha. Dun worry ya, girl! I'll teach you. =P

looking forward to first outing.

World PEACE!! =P (What's world peace got to do with this, anyway?)

2008-05-18T07:30:00.000-07:00

You know who u are, and this msg is for you...

things might seem like it's nv ending, but always do rmb, at the end of the darkness, there will always be a sunrise waiting for you.

I'll always be the sunrise waiting for you at the end of the night.

The road might seem nv ending, but i do hope that u give me a chance to change ur mind.

till then, I'm here for you. Right by ur side.

2008-05-14T02:49:00.001-07:00

New Singer From China, her name is 冰淇, I kinda like her songs...

很想知道你现在的消息，

不清楚自己是怎样的心情。

那个曾经只给我依靠的肩膀，如今给了谁？

时间改变了你我的样子，

却留下了你爱我时的影子。

那些曾经只给我流过的眼泪，如今为了谁？

你和我不了了之的爱情，

有一段不了了之的回忆，

你记得我，还是已经忘记，谁为谁放弃。

你和我不了了之的爱情，

留下了不了了之的痕迹，

你快乐吗？是否有了爱的她，要好好珍惜。

你和我不了了之的爱情，不再有不了了之的结局！

2008-05-10T11:02:00.000-07:00

The scenario is a simple one.

"you say it best, when you say nothing at all"

on the surface, the lyrics of this song aims to express the kind of bonding that the guy has with the girl, in such a way that they do not even need to talk, and they can already know what each other is thinking about in their minds.

Let's say supposedly some 10 years down the road they got married and then the pressure of supporting the family, raising kids, work pressures start to kick in. The wife does nothing but to nag at the husband and all that the husband would ask for, would be some peace.

Now, look at the line again. "you say it best, when you say nothing at all"

Does true love really exist?

Do people get together because of love? Or are they just making use of each other to fulfil what they are lacking of?

Do people really get married and their love stays on forever?

On the long term, is a marriage built on love or simply just responsibility?

Think about it.

2008-04-19T06:40:00.000-07:00

Cream of Mushroom...
Cup of Coke...
Presenting... Hawaiian Pizza and Ocean Catch!
Mum and Bro..
And the Brithday Star! Lao Ba!
Concentrating on eating..

Hand a bit shaky..
Ah! Eat Pizza...
Mmm.. Tastes good...
Spick and span... Empty Pan...
Whoa.. So full, can't move.
Dad also cannot take it le... Haha..

Today went to eat at Pizza Hut, asked mum not to cook and we eat out. Shun Bian celebrate Dad's Birthday. haha.

Eat until damn full.. On the way back suddenly had the urge to SMS Sarah, so I sent her a msg.

As usual, her first reply is always the fastest. Then the subsequent SMS will be slower and slower, then eventually will die off le.

But it's ok. I won't let this spoil the day. I'll still relak relak.

By the way, today just cut hair, feels better with short hair.

2008-04-17T06:35:00.001-07:00

It's enough. Getting you out of shit and then u stir shit again.

Why do I always have to hear this from other people.

You're a grown up now and I understand that sometimes you just need someone there, just like I do.

Trust me I understand how you feel. But getting someone else will not solve the problem.

Face it. You've lost in this game of chance, life, love.

Maybe the next game will come by soon and there's always a next better one.

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living in this world is just like operating a video camera.

By zooming in to the very little spot makes u focus on details, but don't forget, it limits ur view of the bigger picture as well, which is more important.

2008-03-07T08:16:00.001-08:00

just came back from a little outing with Kenneth.

Both of us seem to be troubled over the same matter.

We had two questions, "What went wrong?" and "Are they together or not?"

I'm surprised at the degree of similarity between his current situation and mine. I normally thought that whatever was happening to him, would never happen to me. But there we are, sitting in front of our usual favourite haunt, thinking thru' the same questions and asking ourselves, what in the bloody hell is happening to us?

Guys of our age shouldn't be sitting on the steps on a Friday night, trying to figure out what is wrong with their lives. In fact, we should be having fun, forgetting about everything that is bothering us.

Too emo-ed to sleep. Maybe I'll feel very tired after writing this post, but i decided since I started this, I shall finish it.

"I did everything that a boyfriend should do. Whatever she asked for, I tried my best to give it to her. She wants to eat at some restaurants, I went with her. She wanted to eat ice-cream, I brought her there. She wants to go shopping, I went with her. Whatever she wants, I give. No questions asked. I just want her to be happy." I said.

"Why did she still break-up with me? And she is now with the other guy!" I said.

"Maybe they are just friend?" Ken said.

"If she doesn't feel anything for the guy, she would not have accepted such a posting of the testimonial in the first place!" I said.

"Maybe the testimonial is automatically accepted?" Ken told me.

"No chance. The settings of testimonials that people write for her, has been set in such a way that she must approve it." I said.

"Next, is that guy has only one featured friend. and that featured friend, is " I added.

I really have the urge sometimes to just pick up the bloody phone and give her a call to find out what the hell actually happened on that fateful day that made her make up her mind, to leave me for him.

Angry? Frustrated? Not really. I just don't like the feeling of losing. Over-confident? Maybe. You can even say I am too arrogant to accept defeat. But fuck it. Whether they are together or not, it's none of my fucking business. I shall try to forget her. It's useless to cry over an unfaithful woman.

Girls are everywhere on the streets.
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"Now you finally understand how fucked up it feels, right?"

"Yes. Si Bei Du Lan. When you hear people say that they are together and that there are evidences to prove that they seem to be quite close to each other, but you somehow just cannot find anything more to confirm it."

"You know that they are getting very close, but you don't know if they have already gone into a steady relationship or not."

"If you seeing that makes u du lan, then I seeing this would be even more du lan"

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Once again, I apologise for the vulgarities used.

I just hope that the next princess will come by soon.

2008-03-04T22:44:00.001-08:00

Report from Channelnewsasia
Different faces of Mas Selamat
My own version of identification kit.

Seriously, guys. This is serious. A terrorist is on the loose and we don't know where he is.

Report to the police if u see him.

2008-03-01T23:55:00.000-08:00

His
Hers

I finally understood why she left me. It wasn't army. It was just simply a change of heart.

2008-02-29T03:47:00.000-08:00

Silver Bayonnet
Same shot.
My Name On It.

2008-02-26T17:12:00.001-08:00

And Now, Ladies and Gentlemen, the receiver of the Silver Bayonnet are as follows:

.....

CPL Ong Shen Yang!

...

Receiving the Silver Bayonnet was like a milestone in my army career so far. As one of the Platoon's best trainee, I'm bringing all that I have learnt into the new unit that I'm posted to.

The rank of a 3SG did not come easy, and it signifies the responsibilities and the amount of work load that is lying ahead of me. Everything is going to be tough, but as usual, I shall not give up that easily. After all, I have worked so hard.

I'm going to be a good sergeant and lead my men well. Hope everything will go smoothly.

According to what the 2IC said, the men might not come in until May, so meanwhile, I'll just have to wait until they come in then we will tekan them jia lat jia lat and then build them from scratch. It's always like that de. First few days have to whack them, then after that treat them nice again. It's the same everywhere we go, isn't it?

"No compromise on the standards" was the advice given by my BSLC PC when I went back to visit him yesterday. I'm really very thankful for all that he has done for us during our BSLC period. I hope everything will be smooth-sailing for him and I wish him good health.

May the world be a better place and that there's no war!

World Peace!

2008-02-02T19:58:00.000-08:00

Finally back from Taiwan. The R&R in Taipei was fantastic! haha. Went to Wu Fen Pu, Shihlin and Ximen Ding. Shiok sia. The food is nice, Clothes are beautiful and the most impt of all, there are alot of hot chicks in Taiwan! Oh my.. haha. Miss Taiwan so much sia.. Hope to go back there after ASLC finish. Above are the pics of the stuffs that I've bought.

2007-12-31T07:09:00.000-08:00

That's how she looks like when she wakes up beside me every morning. Haha!

Park Jin Hee. The actress who acted in "Come Back, Soon Ae"

Another "random someone" on friendster.

2008 is coming! =P

looking at the time now, i guess this year's count down will be done with Mr Chew again. (周公)

But it's ok. Yesterday went out with Ken and Choon Kiat to the Army market to buy another pair of combat gloves. cos the last time buy already go back and try again, then it's too big. haha. so i went back to buy another pair of M-sized gloves.

and i bought quite alot of other stuffs as well. All is for my ROC (Taiwan) trip de. going to go off to Taiwan on 13 January le. Hope everything will be fine for me. Even though it's going to be tiring and god knows how we'll suffer during that time.

But everyone is looking forward to the last four days of R&R (Rest & Relax) where we'll be free and easy walking around Taipei. haha. just thinking about it makes me smile. Taiwan girls! Here I come! haha.

Everyone's saying wanna go clubbing in Taiwan, cos it's like the highlight of the whole trip. Go and "Bua" the Taiwan girls. And sergeants also say that Taiwanese girls are more friendly than Singaporean girls. Even easier to get their numbers. haha. But coming to think about it ah, so what if we can get their numbers? It's not like we can do anything with it.

I already have a long list of items to buy for my relatives le. haha. All know I'm going to Taiwan, but I think they seem to have forgotten that I'm going there for training, not for fun!!! Nevertheless, will still buy something if I can... -_-' *suck thumb*

and I 'm going to miss the kickoff meeting for KSJ in 2008... So sian. miss this meeting then will be like a headless fly flying all over the next year. And I'm rushing my other assignment as well.

Finally, coming back to my objective for posting this blog, I just wanted to have a note written on my new year resolution for the year 2008.

Firstly, Reflections for 2007...

Internship at Keppel Corporation
Graduation from SP
POP for S4'07
Enlistment into NS
FAK's 1st birthday
"Affair" with Someone special..
Preparation for KSJ's 10th Anniversary

My internship at Keppel was a fruitful experience with them, because I have learnt alot of skills in handling both work and interpersonal relationship. Skills that are helpful both in KSJ and also my army life. I've learnt how to be a little bit more humble in the way I talk, I have also had a taste of how it feels like to work in a local MNC like Keppel, a taste of how the upper-class people of the society works and operates. Summary : Keppel = Shiok for interns.

Secondly, graduation from SP. SP is such a nice place, now that I'm looking back at the years that I've spent there. Of course, when you're a student there, you might think that the place is quite fuked up and that the facilities and everything is quite bad. But now that I've went thru' everything, I realised how fortunate I am. Every single lecturer, whether slack or fierce, have our interests at heart. Sometimes they might scold us, but at the end of the day, you will realise that they do have every right to be angry at us for not submitting our projects on time, not scoring well for our tests, etc etc.

You see. Teaching is just like preparing for fireworks at the New Year Countdown party. The teachers are the planners and we are the ones setting up the fireworks. They have worked so hard to plan for the fireworks to be ignited at different times in order for the whole event to look nice. but instead, we didn't put the fireworks properly and screw up here and there. In the end, the fireworks did not light up or did not light up at the correct time. If you were the designer and the people executing it did not do a good job, resulting in the whole event being a failure, would you be angry?

POP for S4'07 was a brilliant success and I must really say that this batch of Sec 4s have really done us proud. I know that the subsequent batches also have the potential to do it, it's just that they are not showing their best. Actually there's nothing to hold them back from performing. But I think there shouldn't be much of a problem la. Every batch also didn't really perform until when they are in about Sec 3. So I'm waiting to see what this next batch can do.

13th July 2007 was the "E-Day" the day when I got shaved, the day when I became the lowest life form in Tekong. A recruit. From enlistment till now, I feel that I have truly grown up. I have learnt that nothing is more important in life, other than our loved ones. and by that I mean everyone around you whom you love, be it the boyfriend or girlfriend, parents who nag at you, siblings who fight with you, even the neighbours whom you haven't spoke too in a million years. You will realise how precious it is to be able to just sit in front of the TV on your sofa, munching away on your Potato Chips.

next up, is my Baby in KSJ. The FAK's finally one year old after pushing out 3 editions and I must thank everyone in the Newsletter committee for their hard work and I have said this a thousand times and I couldn't emphasise it enough that it is virtually impossible to have done all these without the help of all those in the committee.

My affair was a short-lived one and I experienced it first hand after I entered army. Army really kills relationships. So please. Either get attached long way before army (so ur relationship is strong enough to survie thru' army), or get attached after army, so all you have to suffer is from the separation during reservist training.

Preparations for KSJ's 10th Anniversary is well on the way. I hope everything will go smoothly and that the event will be a successful one.

Resolution for 2007.

Maintain weight at 68kg (max.)
Maintain good temper thru'out army.
Make more friends.
End up in BMTC as instructor.
Spend more time with family.
Spend more time with friends.
Find a special someone whom I can at least talk to when I'm feeling down.
Meet up with my long-lost friends.
Stay Smoke-free. (ie. don't get tempted to smoke)
Do my best for KSJ.

I guess that's all for now. Good bye 2007, Hello, 2008! =P

2007-12-09T00:42:00.000-08:00

The three most handsome man from KSJ.
I'm still wearing Beret! haha. Cool right.
But luckily I'm not the only Botak here.
KSJ HUAT AH!
Zone Presentation Parade cum Ceremony 2007

Well, I booked out at about 11.30, then I had a mad rush trying to catch the bus and the train and walked home double quick time before i finally reached home at about 12.

In less than an hour's time, i finished bathing, packing and unpacked my stuffs for washing before i took my full-U and rushed out to pass two sets of uniforms to my mum's friend to sew on the corporal rank for me. (oh yes, I'm already corporal, by the way.) then by 12.45, I was already on the train, heading towards CCK.

Finally by 1 o'clock, I reached but ken was still at home! Hai~ Rush to wait, wait to rush. Ken has got the "Army Syndrome". Bo bian. Suck thumb and waited. Then he finally came and we had lunch before we met Rachel, Sok Ting and Sze Him (She's late!). Then luckily got Rachel's Dad drove us to Junction 8 and we walked to Catholic High. haha. Quite up lei, that school.

Then we observed the parade rehearsal and the only conclusions we came to was "wa kao~ the parade is fucked up". haha. Ok la, maybe it wasn't very bad, but it was bad. Everything seemed so impromptu and the GOH didn't even know where to stop or what. Then the parade Sergeant Major also like figure head. By right Parade Sergeant major should be the one arranging and running the show ma. Why just stood there and do nothing. Stupid.

Anyway, the final parade finally started and then the guests came and as usual, all parades organised by them has to have a cock-up somewhere and it did happened.

Then after that went to the canteen for dinner, there was not enough food, insufficient utensils and drinks had long ran out. The worst thing was there were feces on the ground!!!! I can't believe it.

And the presentation ceremony took place in their hall. Whoa! The Catholic High hall is quite up one lei. CK say that air-con was contributed by the parent's support group de lei. Kranji de PSG is so "cui" one lo. Our fans can only spray mist. Somemore sometimes cock-up will spray water and wet everyone. haha.

The presentation didn't have much things lo, just the usual prize presentation, photo slideshow on the pictures submitted by the various Corps and the Cambodia Humanitarian trips. But there was no actual sharing of experiences from any of the volunteers who went there. What a waste.

Anyway, everything finally ended at about 9+ and we went to Junction 8 for further dinner. and we realised that we forgot the cake that Mah bought! but luckily Ai Suan and Xinyan was still in school. haha. and I think it was the alcohol that was added in the dish (I order Terriyaki Chicken! haha.), then i became a bit high. haha.

Then we took out the cake that Mah bought for Kenneth and cut it and shared it. hehe. (We left four pieces of cake for Rachel and her family!) haha.

On the way back (Rachel's Dad has very kindly agreed to send us back to CCK!), we act gay and play a fool behind the lorry. haha. then we took a few stupid pictures as well, and I think we frightened uncle with the flash from the camera. haha. Maybe he thought he was speeding. =P

Anyway, I tried wearing the cap that was the door gift given la. And dunno why it became that Mah say I wore it because I was looking at Kailing's skirt! haha. WTF. come on la. wa piang ey. what a thing to say in front of so many people! Paiseh sia.

But the day ended quite well la. at least we enjoyed ourselves, even though we weren't really happy with the parade thing. haha. After everything yesterday, I sent out and Email about the areas to take note to everyone in the committee.

Aside from this, Sir Derrick was saying that he want to buy a pace stick. haha. good la. CWO must have a pace stick de ma! hehe..

Alright, I should end here and start to pack my bag le. Good bye! =)

2007-11-29T15:56:00.000-08:00

On the morning of the 28km graduation march...

I feels like I woke up on the wrong side of bed. Nothing feels right to me. My joints are aching and the body feels warm. I really fear that the worst might happen.

So I quickly took 2 panadol pills and hoped that I will get better. Indeed, I felt much better.

But by 1130, the symptoms are back again.

By afternoon of the 28km graduation march...

1310 hrs, Cook house 3, sat down and started eating. I could hardly swallow. Nothing seems appetizing, I can't even drink. I feel warm.

Took out my thermometer, 38.1 Degrees...

"You have to go and see the Medical Officer (MO)" Leroy said.

So Ruting accompanied me back to the bunk and I changed out of my No. 4. into Admin.

Then i didn't know why, tears started flowing our of my eyes, maybe I was already in a state of confusion, maybe I was sad that I couldn't join the rest for the route march, maybe I was affected by what happened that particular morning...

At the Medical Centre...
"Sir, can I not go home, but instead stay around, at least I can help out at the water points and give my friends some encouragement as they complete their route march?"

"No. I will have to give you two days Att. C"

"But tomorrow would be my graduation parade!"

"I don't care. Fever of 38.7 degrees means you have to go home."

So I sucked thumb and walked out of the room. By 1430, I have already collected my medicine and walked back to the bunk. The hot sun shone mercilessly and my body temperature started to rise like nobody's business. The walk back from the Medical Centre to the company line never seemed longer.

Visions were starting to get blur and I could almost see dark patches appearing. There was certainly no one who would notice me if I were to faint along the way. The school is busy preparing for the route march and who would care about me?

I'm just a sick soldier, useless as can be.

I told myself that I cannot give up and that I must make it back to the company line at all costs.

It might sound a little ridiculous, but when you're having a fever of 38.7 degrees, you will feel the same way.

I finally made it back at the company line and packed my stuffs in the bunk. Then I also had my medicine before I headed down to the office to sign the "Book in / Book out" Book.

From there, I obtained an Off Pass before I walked out. It was indeed quite a long walk. As I by-passed the various company lines, all of them are preparing themselves for the route march and the thought that I will not even be able to attend the graduation parade just feels like needles piercing through my heart.

and though physically I will recover, matters of the heart will take a longer time to heal...

2007-11-25T02:12:00.000-08:00

There's really so much things to say and so little time.

I'm arranging my stuffs so that I can book in tonight.

Finally already sewing on my Corporal rank. haha. so happy.

PC already openly told me that I'm recommended into the ASLC. I really hope I dun get in.

The newsletter is finally going to be done. Thanks, May. Thanks, Amelia. Thanks, Laura.

Thanks to all writers. Everyone.

ATC 2007 was a brilliant success.

Talked to the Sec 4 seniors, shared a little of our experiences as a helper in KSJ.

I really appreciate all that they have done for KSJ and it's heartening to know that everyone has the intention to come back and help out, or at least, they have seriously thought about it.

I just hope that the newsletter will get published on time.

2007-11-06T05:42:00.000-08:00

i can't take it anymore. it's crazy.

maybe i've used up the chance.

maybe i've missed the time.

maybe maybe

Army really kills relationships. or rather, it never really killed mine.

it added so much stress on my relationship with her that the rope that tied us together finally snapped and broke.

2007-10-06T19:22:00.000-07:00

The darkness in life will be nothing if you went through all the ups and downs.
The more experiences you have, the more likely you will have a breakthrough from the blacks and whites in life.

2007-09-29T04:19:00.000-07:00

2007-09-29T02:49:00.000-07:00

SISPEC is not siong.

but I don't know why I always kinda miss home whenever I step into the bunk.

Maybe it's because I'm still trying to get used to it.

But i remember seeing on a horoscope book once, saying that I'm highly adaptable. I'm not going to give up de la. Since I'm already here, I will make the best of my time in SISPEC and not be scared about anything.

I will be a good role model for my juniors in SJAB. I believe it's the same for my buddy who's a sj officer. KSJ people are not weakass, ok. Even when I am Sick, i don't give up. i also went into the rain and run and do whatever exercise with them.

I NEVER GIVE UP.

KRANJI ST JOHN PEOPLE WILL NEVER DIE!

2007-09-20T20:34:00.001-07:00

I finally knew my posting. going to SISPEC already.

It's confirmed.

SISPEC is quite a big deal, cos u're neither at the top nor are u down below.

This means i might have to work extra hard in order to cross over to OCS. But I think it's alright ba. CK finished his BSLC and is already out to the arty camp le. I hope I do well, so I won't kena ASLC, then have to go back to Tekong! or Guards! or Infantry!

I don't want!

haha. then again, it's by luck la. so i just pray for the best and wish me luck!

2007-09-20T18:23:00.000-07:00

2 and a half hours to knowing my posting for the next camp.

I'm kinda down with a fever.

2007-09-20T06:40:00.000-07:00

It's over.

As quietly as our relationship begun, our relationship finally ended.

It's like a Lalang seed which found a perfect place to grow and it did grew.

But a pity before it grew into a full-grown plant, a forest fire killed it.

Helplessness, Devastation, Resentment.

I wished I didn't devote so much into every relationship.

Yes, I'm experiencing withdrawal syndrome.

I will use an eraser to slowly and painfully erase all the happy times we had.

I will erase everything that we shared.

Our photos, our neoprints, your gifts, your SMS, your phone number.

Good bye, my love.

Since u can't love me anymore, I'll have to remove you from my life.

2007-09-18T05:54:00.000-07:00

i dun get it.

why.

Why won't she just spare a little thought for me.

it's been so long since her knock off time.

I haven't got a reply from her ever since lunch.

i was worried, so i stepped out of home.

I finally understood how it feels to be worried about your loved ones.

I was there at her office.

waiting for her to walk out of the building that seemed so tall and dark.

I waited. patiently I waited, as the minutes crawled by.

I was there till almost everybody left.

But her SMS only came slightly after midnight.

"Sorry, Batt flat", she said.

I left for home.

The cold wind blew past my face, almost as if mocking me.

Why're u so stupid?

who are you to her?

Maybe u're just no more than a nobody to her.

She will never know how much u care for her.

She might never even wanna noe.

it's not over, because things between both of us, maybe hasn't even begun.

"you can't lose what you never had."

That's how I feel.

2007-09-16T02:34:00.000-07:00

I know what you're thinking, but we're seriously not gay.
Rec Ong Shen Yang with his Dad and Mum!
Buddy (aka Jian Wen) with the hunk of the year.
Yes, yes. I know. Don't ask me why I was laughing like that.
Platoon 2 Section 3 will rock your socks!
He's the "I can't do pull-up" man, Mr Kek Li Song!

Finally, after 8 wks + 2 days of gruelling basic military training, Ong has become a real tough men, able to do whatever that he was unable to do in the past. (except the SOC)

Ok. Here's how it went. *blah blah blah* refer to past blog posts.

So on the fateful day, Sept 11 2007. The Whiskey warriors from the 03/07 batch had our POP.

When we're on the parade square, the sun shone on us relentlessly, with the rays of sunlight hitting hard on our scalp. The temperature almost hit 40 degrees (ok, i'm just joking) but it was freaking hot.

Everything's quite fine on that day, no rain, no major cock-ups (meaning that there were still some minor screw-ups), but that's ok. The important thing is "Get most of the things right."

And as the school sergeant major rightly put it, *pinches nose* "todaayyy, is your D-Daaayy. All the Haaarrrddd work, that you have put iiiinnnnn, is going to pay off today. Your pareeeennnnnttttsss and loved ooonnnnneeeessss, are going to see yoooouuuu."

Our SSM is damn one-kind. haha. ok. shall talk more about him in the other blog posts next time. Anyway, it's really a very different feeling when Dad put on my jockey cap for me on the parade square.

I was like "It's finally over!"

Standing beside me was my buddy with his parents. Both very happy also. So I introduced my buddy to Dad and Mum. haha.

Oh yes, did I also said that my buddy is a SJAB Officer from Zone 8? haha. That day we were also thinking of how to improve our Corps' standards. He said his Corps need to train up his NC Team. Then i say my Corps need to train up the AC Team. Then we had this crazy idea of cross-training with each other.

Haha. it's crazy and funny. But some how it seems very feasible. They train up our AC, we train up their NC. Good. haha.

Anyway, photos of the POP is included in this blog posts as well. for more information, please contact bugger, No, I mean, blogger.

2007-09-08T21:48:00.000-07:00

Love vs. Passion.

God knows how long I've not gone back to KSJ for training and I kinda miss that feeling of interacting with my cadets. There's no choice (well, whenever i say no choice, i kinda made a choice already)

But recently have been booking out on Saturdays and booking in early Sunday. There's practically only 24 hours. Out of this 24 hours, minus 8 hours of sleep, 3 hours of transport, 2 hours to wash clothes and settle all my stuffs i brought home from the camp, 4 hours to spend with my girl, 1 hour to check Email and Blog, 2 hours with my buddies, 4 hours to eat and do all the other stuffs.

no time for SJ.

But i think during my block leave, i can chiong for my SJ stuffs. too many stuffs needs to be done for SJ.

Anyway, luckily Sarah's quite understanding. She noticed that I was a bit sian sian yesterday during our dinner at HK Cafe at Cineleisure. it's not bad. the food is ok. I had Curry Chicken, she had char siew mee sua. Then we went to take some neoprints. haha. After that then send her home le..

dunno why cannot scan the neoprints into the computer. haha. Anyway, she's already working at Sentosa when I woke up this morning. So heartpain, see her work so hard like that.

I will work hard and jia you de!!!!!!! I will earn alot alot of money for you, ok? So you can be a rich Tai-Tai, everyday go shopping. haha.

hope i can at least make good of my promise to go Sentosa and Sun-tan with her during my block leave.

Things to do for block leave:

meet up with buddies
spend more time with family
spend more time with Sarah
spend lesser money (not very possible, but I'll try, though.)
Chiong SJ Newsletter!!!!!!!!!!! haha.

2007-08-24T16:25:00.000-07:00

Papers don't rust. They only decay, Ken.

"So what if i got more certs, trophy of appreciation than other ppl, its still biodegradable afterall. One day it will still rust and termites will eat them."

I was going through Ken's blog when I spotted this interesting little point. haha.

But coming back to the real deal, I noticed this little section somewhere talking about the discrimination of the fat people in the Singaporean society.

I beg to differ.

As a firm believer of the line "Your fate is in your own hands", I have always fought for my own rights and has never subjected myself to any forms of discrimnation and neither do I further victimise myself by saying "Yes, what they say is true. I really cannot do it. I won't try anymore from now on. Let's give up."

I don't know why Ken is saying this, but I would like to recall one of the incidents where Kenneth and I were going to buy a shirt for his first clubbing experience.

We almost went around the whole Singapore to look for a freaking shirt for him, because there's no shirt size. At that point in time, I can finally understand how he feels.

"You will really feel the pain, when you're on the receiving side of the cane." was what he wrote there in his blog. How true.

But let me tell you one thing.

In the army, the people from the Dragon and Eagles company, (by the way, people in these two companies are obese people), cannot run, they can only walk or march, jumping, maybe yes, maybe no. From their company to the cookhouse, they have to march all the way in. By the time they reach the cookhouse, their shirts are normally wet with sweat.

However, people still respect them. Despite their size, knowing that they would never win when it comes to physical activities, they can still do what they are best at. They sing loudly when they are marching, they try to do things as quickly as possible, they don't walk on the parade square. (Even when they are allowed to) They always win in the BMTC games day. They are united. They look out for one another. They encourage one another.

These might seem to be the simplest task that can be easily done, but you don't normally see it happening in the other companies. I don't know why, but maybe it's because they suffer the same discrimination, so they understand each other better. They will always try to see things from another person's point of view.

My sergeants always use them as a point of reference to push us by saying, "Are you all sure you want to lose to these fat fucks?! Are you sure you want to humiliate yourself? Those fat fucks can sing louder than you all! Look at them! Even though they cannot do pull-ups, they still try! What about you?! Are you sure you want to give up?!"

From the way I see it, these so-called "Fat fucks" are mentally stronger than anyone of us here. Because they never give up in fighting the society's discrimination against them.

2007-08-19T00:04:00.000-07:00

That's my dear girl and me! haha.

I don't know why... She likes to make funny faces. haha.

Now, that's better...

What! You mean you didn't know Ong likes you?!

Let me see... Hmm... What's inside...?

Huh... I dunno what's inside the box. haha.

Fresh meat?!

I went to watch Rush Hour 3 with Sarah yesterday. The original plan was to go to Sentosa, but in the end we decided that maybe it's not that good an idea to go on a rainy day. haha.

She very wanted to sun tan at Sentosa, but I supposed the weather didn't permit for it. haha. Well, she's didn't mind it anyway. So she suggested that we go watch a movie. I was like... "Ok!" I'll go wherever you wanna go la. haha.

The movie was very funny and she was laughing all the way. I don't know why, but it just feels good to see her smile. I love her smile. haha. These few days she has been very stressed with her exams and I thought maybe it's good to go out with her to help her lighten up her mood.

It pains me to see her stressed up and trying hard to remember everything and want to achieve good results. very jia lat. Hai~ My dear girl is very stressed with her exams lo....

But nvm la. At least she enjoyed herself yesterday. haha. I've also given her a present yesterday, it's her belated birthday present la. haha. and her birthday card as well, inside there's a msg which I've written during the 5th day of my field camp, which is her birthday.

I can't remember what I wrote, but I'm sure it was a heartfelt msg written from the bottom of my heart. haha. Then her present is quite meaningful de la. need a bit of time to fix it up before she can see my msg for her. =P I shall not tell you what it is, but I think it's something she would like.

After the movies, we went to Superdog to eat some food. haha. So we ate and laughed, laughed and ate. She asked me if I would like to go to Paris one day (Because Rush Hour 3 was shot there) and I said, well, maybe it's a good idea and that maybe we can go there together one day. She agreed with me lei! haha. I know, it's just talking only and talk is cheap. But still, very happy. haha.

Today she's studying at home and I'm missing my girl.

Please take good care of yourself while I'm away on the faraway island.

BMT's not about what you leave behind, it's what you'll gain in the days ahead.

I'll miss you, my dear girl. I will.

2007-08-17T19:22:00.000-07:00

Time of our lives - Field Camp

Day 1 - 8 km Route March cum Basha Tent build up. Powder Bathe (Sleep in Basha)

Battalion on alert!
So pack your bags and go!
Oh! What a way to start the day ahead!
Hey ya!
Here we go~o~o~o!
Hey!
Here we go~o~o~o!
Hey!
Day and Night while you're sleeping, Whiskey warriors come and creeping round and round.
Hey! Round! Hey! Round! Hey Ya!

Yes, the 8 "click" route march is the entry pass to the field camp, those who cannot make it will have to be excused throughout the field camp. "Weakass! Fuckers! Those fuckers who cannot do the march will help us dig the shit holes!" yes. That's what my sergeant said. I don't know why, the 8 click route march seems to be heavier than before. Probably because of the way we pack our stuffs and the extra rations that we have in there. It's crazy.

The whole business, i think, weighs about 25kg, that's not including the LBV and the helmet, plus the rifle. I think in total, plus my body weight, it's about a 100kg walking for 8km.
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Make sure the groundsheets are tightened properly to the comscord. Then pull the tent pins to make it taut. Do the same for the other side diagonal to it. Insert the Basha sticks by the sides and erect the Basha sticks. Once you're done, loop the comscord from the top of the Basha sticks and pin it down to the ground. When you're done, dig a drainage system around the tent to anticipate the rain.

What you've just gone through, is the procedure to build a Basha tent. It's crazy, I tell you. It's nothing like pitching a tent back in Secondary School, but what I did back in KSJ was definitely a good preparation. At least I know the concept and how it works.

Our Platoon Sergeant was damn pissed off with us on the first day of the Field Camp and it was definitely a bad start. But anyway, I've already prepared to be Tekan by our Sergeants already.

I think there are some people who just cannot show a sense of urgency when it comes to doing this. Like walking while the platoon has already fall in. So naturally, our sergeants were pissed off. So we had to tear down our tents and frantically try to stuff everything back into our field pack. Damn sian. Everybody has done their stuffs and we're still dismantling and pitching. Hai~

So that was about it. Everything's tekan tekan and more tekan for the first day.

Day 2 - Lessons on IFC, Day Movement and Night Movement (Sleep in Basha)

Day movement - We basically re-capped the stuffs we learnt before the field camp, basically is movement of a group in the day, how to take cover, learn a bit of the field signals. haha.

There's one particular signal which is very funny, it's the "double up" signal. That's when you clench your fist in front of you and swing it up and down with your elbow as the pivoting point. Everyone laughed when the officer demonstrated it. Then the officer noticed it and shouted, "HEY! It's not PCC la!" haha.

Day 3 - Dismantle tents and area cleaning, 6 km Route March to reclaimed land (Sleep on Ground Sheet)

We dismantled our tents and we supposed to do a defence at the defence site, which is 6 km away. So we kept every single thing and did a mass area cleaning, to make sure we don't leave anything behind for the enemy to spot, before we marched off in the afternoon. The sun was up. The temperatures are rising. The bag seemed to be twice as heavy than it was when we originally came. But we still marched on.

Even as the camou on our face came dripping down with our sweat, as our ammo pouches are all covered with green and black sweat mixture, we pressed on. The country's depending on us and we cannot fall. We must go on.

It was already close to night time when we reached our defence site. OC sir said we'll rest for a night before we dig our shell scrape tomorrow. So we took out our ground sheets and slept.

Day 4 - Dig Shell Scrape & Rest (Sleep in "Grave")

The sand is flying into our shirts and is rubbing against our skin, but I carried on digging my shell scrape. It's basically a hole in the ground, which is large enough for us to put our field packs and for us to lie down inside. The idea is to have a hole deep enough that when we lie down, the enemies cannot see us from a distance away.

After 2 and a half hours of digging, my shell scrape is finally done. I sat by the side of the shell scrape and drank my last bit of water. The water in the fully-filled water bag has already gone dry. Whatever's left in my bottle is supposed to last me for another hour or so, before the supplies come again.

I helped my friends to dig their shell scrape. Time is running out. The enemies are approaching. There could be artillery bombing at any time.

By this time, the blisters on the hands have already bursted long ago and my engineering gloves have already been soaked in blood and sweat. The pain is immense. But I remember a saying I saw on CK's Blog. "Tough times don't last, Only Tough men do"

I was thinking to myself. How true. However tough it is, I'm going to be tougher than the challenge in front of me.

Day 5 - Tests. "Kill" enemies (Sleep in "Grave") Woke up with thunder bang. (Group Battle Course) 2 km route, run for the last 500 m. like the last scene in Black Hawk Down.

I opened my eyes and saw a spark circling round, before it finally landed in front of my shell scrape. I heard a "ssssssss~~~~" sound before it blew up. If it were a real bomb, I would have died. Everyone scuffled for their helmets and rifles, before proning down to take cover.

So my morning was jump-started with a bombing from the enemies.

Reccee Troopers have been found doing their rounds near our defence site. OC Sir has given the orders for us to do patrol and engage enemies if we need to. So we did a 2km patrol around the site. Along the way, we were contacted by enemies twice. But they were not our match.

Easy take down. However, towards the last part we were ambushed by artillery fire. Once the arty was lifted, we started running back to our defence site. It was quite a long run and I was bogged down with my rifle, Helmet and LBV. When I turned back, I saw one of my friend who was about to collapse.

I had no choice. I dragged him by his LBV and started pulling him along. "Don't give up! We're almost there!"

"RUN~!" I shouted. Though all of us very totally shacked by the end of this, we managed to survive and conquered this together.

Day 6 - Thunder bang. Cover Shell Scrape, Load Field Pack onto Tonner, Walk to BIC Ground

We were once again bombed in the morning. The defence is falling. Everyone's morale is low.

The enemies are rolling in in large numbers. We have to abandon our defence site.

10 mins to cover up our shell scrape and run.

Load your field packs up the tonner. Get ready to march 2 km to the next enemy site. We're going to bring down those bastards today! Fight! If we must die, we'll die in glory.

after the 2 km route march to the enemy site, we were briefed of what we were supposed to do. The idea was to survive a steel rain of live rounds firing above your head, while you do a leopard crawl and back crawl under obstacles and on sand.

Even as the sand gets into our shirts and pants, once again rubbing against our skin, tearing it mercilessly and the blood goes like free-flow drinks at a buffet, we've pushed on. Once we reached our finishing points, we charged at the final enemy target in front and struck it.

The target goes down, marking the end of field camp.

Enemy is killed.

Mission is completed.

Everything's finally over.

2007-08-04T01:46:00.000-07:00

Whiskey is not a drink, it’s a snow wolf.

It’s the Company that I’m in.

Whiskey, Platoon 2, Section 3, Bed 9. W2309 is my 4D No. haha.

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Before I begin, I would like to apologise for all the vulgarities I use in this post. Army people, recruits especially, will use alot of vulgarities.

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Day 1

Enlistment…

The first thing I did on the day of enlistment was that I woke up at about 5.30 in the morning, then bathed, Ken had called me a day before to check if he can join me for the enlistment exercise or not.

I said, “Sure, no problem.” So we went together, with my parents.

When I reached Pasir Ris, it was about 7.30, so I went to Macdonald’s to eat breakfast and saw Dennis, my secondary school mate, and also Pei Jue, the “Officer” that my brother hated the most during his SJAB life in Swiss.

Anyway, coming back to the point, I went to take the bus to the SAF Ferry Terminal. I thought it was going to be some kok kok Ferry lo. Haha. But in the end, still not quite bad la. Got Air-con, quite spacious. Haha.

I think it’s spacious because we sat in the front row seats, which was meant for officers and warrant officers. Then Ken was joking that I’m RSM, so can seat there. Haha. Rubbish.

Nevertheless, already experienced the SAF power on the first day of enlistment. Mum went to the toilet upon reaching Tekong, so we waited for her lo. Then until I looked around and realized that everyone’s gone already. Haha. Then I hurried to the staircase and ran forward. Then very tired and walked a bit. Then I hear one officer shouting, “Hey, hurry up! You are late!”

Then I took out my pink IC and handed it over to the officer. Then from there onwards, I didn’t see my Pink IC anymore le. Haha.

Then they make me sit down in the auditorium and the stupid CSM came to talk to us and make us practice the pledge (See below)

“I, (NRIC No), (Name), having entered the service of the Republic of Singapore under the Enlistment Act, do solemnly and sincerely swear that: I will always bear true faith and allegiance to the Republic of Singapore, I will be ready, at the order of the Government, to rise up to the defence of the Republic of Singapore, I will obey the laws of the Republic of Singapore and the order of my commanders, I will carry out my duties with integrity, courage and commitment at all times, and I will preserve and protect the honour and independence of the Republic of Singapore, WITH MY LIFE!”

Then after that, all the recuits will line up in 2 lines, outside and wait for their parents to come and “fetch” them to lunch. It’s really like shit lo. Wait for the queue so long, then the food is like the only nice food that they have. Haha. (The food after the parents are gone, that is really cannot make it one).

After the parents have gone home…

Intro to vulgarities.

“Anyone cannot take vulgarities one, raise up your hand now!”

I didn’t raise my hand, but some of my platoon mates did. “Fuck you!” together with a middle finger is shot towards those who raise up their hands.

“Didn’t die right? So is still can take a bit of vulgarities la. Good.”

That’s what my Platoon Commander (PC) did to us on the first day. What the fuck. I think it’s just something that they do to emphasise on the seriousness of the matter. I think it works somehow.

Compare the following 2 sentences and see which one works better.

1. “Seat down.”

2. “Fucking CB! You dunno how to fucking seat down is it!”

Day 2

Our Officer Commanding (OC), also talked to us on the second day. During the talk, he asked us, what we heard about Whiskey before we enlisted. Some of us said, “My friend say Whiskey is very slack, got a lot of admin time!”

Then my OC said, “You know why we have so much admin time or not?”

Of course we said no la.

“Because we are fucking efficient! That’s why while those idiots are still doing ‘left, right, left, right’ after RO, you are already playing games with your girlfriend in dreamland already!”

OC Sir also talked to us about his expectations of us and asked us what we need in the bunk, like pillows, lockers, whatever.

“I need to give you the things you need to help you excel, before I can ask for the standards from you.”

“One more thing is, when I ask for something from you, I always like to use the ‘Carrot’ method; meaning, I would like to encourage you by giving rewards. But if the carrot method fails, I would have to the use the cane. Even if I hate to use the cane, I’ll use it when I have to.”

“And I would like to remind you, my cane is very long.”

At this point, he put his hand about half a meter in front of his “brother” and shake his hips. Then the whole lecture theater laughed like siao. Haha.

Day 3

The intro to Combat PT 1.

The floor was… I think about 50 degrees or something. Then there was two exercises where we had to lie on the ground, flat. They are; Crunches and prone rower.

Crunches is not too bad la. It’s like sit-up like that, just raise your legs and do sit ups la. Damn siong. Back is damn pain and hot. I think half the meat is cooked already.

I think the PTI is sick. He think he’s cooking meat. Tell us to lie down on the back, then after that, lie down on the front for the prone rower exercise. Do 5 counts of 4. siao. Damn hot after that.

Day 4

Combat PT 2

It’s another set of exercises again, somemore with chin up and whatever other exercises. Can’t remember la. Haha

Then we do the dumbbell drills. Wa Lao. Kena fucked. Haha. The dumb bell drill is another sick exercise. We were grouped according to our weight. Then the heavier ones of course have to take heavier dumb bells.

There’s one where we have to hold the dumb bell at shoulder level, with our elbows bent. Then we’ll get into half squat position and lower the dumb bell by the side. If you think it’s easy, try it for yourself, by doing 5 counts of 4, do it slowly, each count lasting about 5 seconds. I tell you, you’ll die.

Then there’s one more exercise where we have to raise the dumb bell up by the side and hold it there.

This is also where we were fucked big time.

“Hey, gu niang! Don’t lower your dumb bell la, Chee Bye!” our PC really fucked us up that time. Real bad., foul language was used throughout three-quarter of the whole session. Like siao like that. Haha. Keep spouting the foul language.

We are were like shouting to distract ourselves and also to express our pain. “Aaaaaahhhhhh…….!!!!!!!!”

Then the PC was like “Hey! Stop moaning la! You all are not fucking, now. Stop having orgasm la, you fuckers!”

Damn shack but in the end was quite happy, cos I didn’t give up throughout the whole session. Some weak ass already fall out during the first few days, or halfway thru’ the exercise. Encouragement from friends was really what kept me going. BMT is going to be at least 10 times tougher without my army buddies.

IPPT Categorisation Test

Immediately after all the exercises, we took a rest and had our IPPT Cat Test.

I think it’s because of all the exercises that we had done for the first few days after enlistment that caused us to be very tired, so our IPPT results were not that good. Pull-up only did 4. lousy like fuck. Haha. Damn sian.

Then the IPPT was terminated due to the rain.

Day 5

Then we had two injections, one on the right arm and one on the left arm. Then we also had polio medicine. The polio medicine was dripped under the tongue. It tasted like melted plastic. Haha. Taste very bad.

After that, had slight fever for a few days, due to the stupid medicine that they gave us. It’s like shit like that. Injection already, then the medic tell us, “You might have slight fever due to the injection, so if you feel warm, just drink up”

Then I’m like er…. Injection will cause fever, now then you tell me, what the fuck. Isn’t there a way to prevent the fever from occurring?! The injection caused me to be feverish for so many days lo. WTF.

Then at night, I met my wife for this BMT period for the first time. My PC rehearsed a few times with my platoon and then it was ok. Then my sergeant also said, “Even if you screw up, never mind one, because the place you take your rifle is very dark. No one can see that you corked up one.” (Totally different from what we see on the video on our first day of enlistment) There is totally no light at all at the place we received the rifle.

Oh, yes. If you don’t know, there’s a statue of the flag and a soldier near the entrance at the jetty.

Then last minute before we take our wives

Day 6

IPPT Re-run

In the morning, we had IPPT 2.4km re-run, because the IPPT was cancelled due to the rain the day before. All I remembered is, I ran like fuck, sweat like fuck and panted like fuck. Then the timing was 11.53. So lousy lo. I thought it would have been a lot better. Haha.

Road March (4km)

Then in the afternoon, Wei Chen’s (my buddy) field pack broke during the 4 km road march today. So he was carrying his field pack one-sided thru’ out the whole road march. WTF.

It’s my first road march today! Haha. 4km with my helmet, Field Pack, LBV (Full water bag) and rifle. The whole business I think weighed only about 15 kg or at most is 20. But I don’t think got so heavy. But it was definitely very bulky.

Somemore we were only wearing vest slack attire, meaning it’s something like full uniform like that, just that we don’t wear the shirt, we wore admin shirt instead.

Some of my friends got blister, but I didn’t! haha. Because I double socked and then put a lot of the powder. Haha. Lucky listened to Choon Siong and Choon Kiat. Otherwise would have died. Haha.

Strip!

After that in the evening, still have a bit of lessons, learnt how to strip a rifle. First time stripping a rifle.

Quote from OC “Do you know why we call ur rifle your wife?”

Once again, we said No.

“First, when you have a wife, you must learn how to strip her down to the last piece right, that’s exactly what you have to learn here.”

“Second, you must learn how to clean it properly. Like how you bathe your real wife. You don’t want to sleep with a stinky wife right?!”

“Thirdly, if your wife perform well, you will be a happy man, right? You know what I mean la, ah!”

“Lastly, you know why the pistol grip has a hole at the bottom right? So next time you see people bringing their wife into the cubicle, you know what they want to do la!”

Then the whole company laughed like siao. Haha

Mickey pays a visit!

At night, while I was bathing, I heard someone shouting and laughing as they entered the toilet, “Section 3 got rats! Everybody were like taking a pail and the broom and running around in the bunk and shifting beds and cupboards, trying to locate the rat.” Then I also laughed somemore. Then I realized, “Ey! Fuck! It’s my bunk!” Then I quickly wear my underwear and chiong out of the toilet to help catch the rat already. Haha!”

Then I saw the rat run out of the bunk and then through the spacing in between the railings and “Flew down”. I think it died, cos the next morning, the CSM said he saw a rat fly down from the third floor. He thought we caught it and threw it down. Haha. Like fuck. Why would we do such a sadist thing! Siao.

Day 7

In the afternoon… “I’m getting you here because I feel that Sir Stanley’s (Our PC) volcano is going to explode already.”

That’s what Sergeant Royston said to the platoon.

Our platoon’s performance is really a very sucky one every since our first day. It’s been a week since we enlisted and the performance that we have shown, has no improvement at all.

Then at night, we talk cock with Sir Stanley after RO (RO is Routine Order, by the way. It’s like a schedule for the next day kinda thing.) Then he told us, Whiskey Platoon 2 has always been a very special platoon and the best platoon of the company. If we want to send a platoon to represent Whiskey, Platoon 2 will be the one.

So there’s this legacy which was left behind by our seniors. So we have to keep it up.

Then Sir Stanley also told us a bit about our Sergeants.

Section 1: SGT Ming Kun (very stern, but likes to play DOTA. If you talk to him about it, he’ll talk non-stop about DOTA.)

Section 2: SGT Willy (Loves to sleep)

Section 3: SGT Royston (Loves to Sing)

Section 4: SGT Sufiyan (Love to say “Fu….ck you la! **You must drag the Fu….ck you la! Haha.)

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WTF. Type so long, still only until Day 7. haha. Update tml la. I damn tired.

2007-07-09T05:59:00.001-07:00

Finally, my last training is over le~! haha. If my enlistment is on a Sunday, then maybe still can go for one more training. But then again, it's on a Friday. So 7 July is like the last training which I'm attending with my hair.

Please see below for my speech (or rather, my hair's);

Dear all KSJ fellow members,

Fully knowing that 7 July would be my last day here as a member of the KSJ family (with my hair), I would like to thank the following people;

Firstly, Sir Derrick; thanks for being such a good boss all these years; the things that you've taught and the words that you say always come as a timely advice, be it with regards to professional or personal matters.

Secondly, Ms Tan; thanks for being a caring CCA TIC all these years. I think you've been with us for a very long time too. I always remembered how u always scolded Brandon when we were in school. We can always talk to you whenever we have any problems. haha. Also, thanks remembering us whenever you go overseas. You've never failed to buy something back for us.

Then I remember there was only once when u lost your temper. During our Sec One’s Combined Uniform Group Camp. Some stupid people had dumped a full-pack of food away. Then we were at the campsite’s hall. You spoke over the microphone. I remember the exact words. After you said some one had thrown food away. “You will now pay the price for it.”

Then Sir Hung took over. Then die. Haha. 500 push-ups, then commando crawls and then a lot of other things. Haha.

Thirdly, Ms Ratna; thanks for being such a cool teacher! haha. She's like the big sister of mine in KSJ. hehe. Ever since when I was in Secondary School, she's always been like that de la. haha. come into the class will greet you, "Ok, Good Morning, Darlings". hehe. Cool right. which teacher will greet you like that. Also, she's never really given me much pressure on the newsletter la. So I have quite a lot of freedom in deciding the things. hehe.

Next, Ms Ang; though I don’t have much dealings with Ms Ang in KSJ, I think she’s also quite a motherly figure ba and the cadets will like. Haha. Mmm~ Maybe hope to carry out projects for KSJ with her, so can know her better.

Fifth, Ms Vanitha; latest addition to the fleet! Hehe. Thanks for all that you have done for us, especially for the POP Day. If without you, I think we’ll never get the logistics done by Mr Loh. Haha. Oh yes, thanks Mr Loh also. Haha. Coming back, I think you’ve joined us at a very good time. Because KSJ is entering into a “Huat Ar!” Era. So you can actually see how good our Corps is improving. Hehe. There’s just so many things of KSJ that you’ll get to love.

Next, to Sec 4s aka (S4/07) haha. These people are really damn one kind. Each has got a characteristic of their own. Dunno how to say, so better dun say. Coming back, I hope everyone of you can go for officer course and then come back and help ba. KSJ is really in need of people. Officers, rather. Cadets also ba. Come back and then u can help us in the recruitment drive to recruit more people lo. Hehe. So we can 干掉 NCC, NPCC, probably badminton also.

Haha. Also, how can I forget our “retired” CSM, Christine, the big sister to all the juniors in KSJ. Thanks for upkeeping the Corps’s standard and always pushing the cadets to achieve their best. I know it wasn’t an easy task to be the CSM, but u have certainly done well in your term; together with the other NCOs. Thanks Sec 4s.

Seventh, Sec 3s aka (S3/07). This is the batch which I have the most contact with la. Ever since when they were in Sec One, I still remember taking them for Footdrill lo. Use the drill cane to scare them. Haha. “If you dun march in one straight line, I’ll whack you!” Then I’ll swing the dummy drill cane. Haha. Well, well. It seems like it has worked well what. Haha. After that, then I became the AC Team in-charge then didn’t get to come into contact with the Sec 3 batch as a whole so much le.

Ok, don’t say I bias ah… I have quite a lot to say to the Sec 3s… Firstly, is the new CSM… Ms Chua Simin; please continue to upkeep the standards that your predecessors have set and continue to bring the Corps to the next higher level of achievement. It’s going to be tough, but the results at the end will be worthwhile. Seeing the efforts that you have put in for KSJ all these years, I won’t need to say too much. Those with eyes can see your performance and the results that you have produced.

Next, to Cheung Weng, Hope you don’t get fed up with me for pushing you during the whole period of the FAC Training. I’m just doing my job and I know you’ve been trying your best to screw the boys too. Even when you don’t succeed all the time in instilling discipline into them, that’s life. You’ve got to get things done, so you’ve got to get the act together and do it. Be more firm in the way you talk to cadets. Don’t always take things into you own hands and do it yourself. Distribute the work. Anyway, you’ve got to worry about who to pass your position to next. Give others a chance to help you; especially the juniors.

Next, to Yong Ting. You’ve always been a good assistant to Cheung Weng during the FAC Period. I hope next year you’ll be able to lead your own team to participate in the FAC competition. You also smile smile smile all the time and do all the things yourself. It’s not a very manly thing to do all the things yourself all the time. Get help if you must.

To May; May ah! When’s my newsletter stuffs coming in?! haha. You’re right. This is my newsletter de designer lo. Haha. Poor May, always kena pushed by me de. But no choice la. Since you’ve taken up this job, have to carry it to the end. That’s what I appreciate about May. The sense of responsibility. I mean, who can tahan you change and change their designs one? Hehe. All the help that you have given makes u an important asset for the committee Thanks, May.

To the rest of the sec threes (Not that you’re not important, but there’s just too many of you!) Aisyah, Amelia, Mariz, Hong Lip, Yan Ying, Jie Ting, Laura, Joey and also the recently just quit de Wan Lin…

Hope you all will continue to progress further. All the best to all of you. Hope u all take care. There’s just so much to say, it’s like seeing all of you grow up from Sec 1 to now, Sec 3 le.. Finally, the responsibility of running the Corps is landing on your shoulders now. 3 stripes are not that easy to wear on your shoulders one, Ok.. haha.

Sec 2s, also the batch which I had most contact with, recently. Good. The eagerness to learn and outshine each other is good. But don’t let the competition destroy your friendship. You make true friends only when you go through tough times and I will be the “tough times”. Haha.

There’s still so much things to learn, so many things to do. The best way to learn is to be Kay-poh. See what your seniors are doing, then ask if you can help. When u help, then u can learn. My advice to you, “Get your hands dirty, before you can learn the skills.”

Thanks for organising the Farewell thing for me, even though personally I have some comments reserved for the card la. Haha. Hope you guys make good ur words, make sure that you all are up to my expectations when I book out, ok? Jia you.

Sec 1s, this is the batch which I still don’t know that much, even though I seem to have the most contact with you all. Footdrill still can improve, the other areas, definitely will be better. Basically, once you’re past the rank of Lance Corporal, the rest will follow on just as well. Put in your best, encourage each other and Jia You together. I can see some of you are getting along quite well with one another. Work with ur buddy and best friends lo. So you can scale greater heights together.

2007-07-03T16:39:00.000-07:00

Yup, that's the pretty little devil in disguise. hehe.

That's pre-cooked version...

The Bottle from Malaysia. hehe. Looks like Shampoo bottle right. But it's a Lemon Honey drink... -_-'
The Back view...
Yum, yum... The Ice-Cream is good.
Got some more anot hah? I'm finishing this...
Well, probably not that bad ba. haha.
Cousin's Mischievious Baby Strikes back!

haha. Ok. This little Devil in disguise is really damn one kind. haha. She's probably one that'll make u go crazy. Sometimes when she smiles, you think she's happy. The next moment, she'll start crying and screaming and start running all over the place.

Went to play Badminton with Kenneth yesterday, then when I was about to go back, mum called, saying Renee is here at my house. haha. Then I quickly fly back to play with her. Then I brought her to the play ground and play lo. damn funny. She can really run around lei. Hard to catch up with her.

Then she kept screaming and screaming, running and running. Man, toddlers can be really active. Especially when they start to learn how to talk and run and scream! hehe. Then play a bit with her lo. Wanna make some Cheese Prawn Rolls for her to eat one, but she was already sleeping by dinner time. Ok, nvm. I help u finish it. hehe.

I finally can make decent Cheese prawn rolls, without the cheese spilling out from the roll and making a mess out of the kitchen! YEAH!! haha.

Just uploaded some pictures and videos onto Youtube and for the Kopi Gang. I think I'm still not quite feeling the "urgency" to get ready for NS. haha. It's like I'm going to attend a 2-week camp, that's all. haha. NS is going to blow past so soon that I don't realise it.

Like my internship lo. Actually dun intend to stay in the company for so long de. But somehow still stayed for 7 and a half months. hehe.

Anyway, coming back to the point, I was Badminton-ing with Kenneth yesterday, then after that went to Limbang again. Then on the way there recorded "偷渡客" Part 3. Meaning Illegal Immigrant Part 3 la. haha. It's damn funny. Anyone who wants it can let me know. haha.

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2007-07-02T04:14:00.000-07:00

I just happened to upload the pic that my cousin uploaded to me. hehe. Guess which one is me?

*Hint: A pretty girl just walked past by the side!

2007-06-30T03:58:00.000-07:00

Yup, that's Sarah and me. hehe. I swear she looks a lot better in person.

Ok, the Cheesecake that we shared. hehe.
Our Dream House?
Dad's "No Shadow Hand" grabbing the Pork Floss You Tiao. haha.
Tie Ban Dou Fu, Za Cai & Pork Floss You Tiao! =P
Tie Ban Dou Fu and Za Cai! haha.
Tie Ban Dou Fu!
My Happy mum looking at the birthday card picked by her daughter-in-law. haha.

Ben & Jerry's?
I love it! Whoo hoo!

haha. was supposed to go to Sentosa today, but didn't. hehe. due to poor time management. hehe.

Supposed to meet Sarah at 11.30am cos she wanna buy presents for her brother's birthday on 2 July. Then we went around Vivo, cos we can buy presents for her brother as well as my mum, cos her birthday is today, 30 June 2007. hehe.

So we walked round and round Vivo City, but we can't find the crumpler store that she wanted to find, cos she wanna buy a pouch for her brother. hehe. But in the end... cannot find. I also cannot find anything for my mum.

After that, she suggested that we go get something from Candy Empire. Well, anything that makes her happy. So we went there and then finally saw something that is suitable for my mum. Belgian cookies. FINEST Belgian Cookies. At least, that's what the packaging says. hehe.

Then she suggested we buy some candies together, so we can share share. Ya lo. We share share. hehe. Everything also can share de la. What's mine is also hers. hehe.

Then we walked around for another while, wanna find Haagen-Dazs and then go there and eat. haha. But when we were about to enter the shop, Sarah received a call from her mum. Want her to go to the Raffles City to find her, cos she wanna buy Addidas shoes for Sarah.

So I went along lo, haha. Then we finally reached Raffles City. I was a bit nervous at first, then when we were about to enter, she suddenly look at me and then say "Erm, if you're not ready to see my mum, you might want to walk around first, I'll give you a call when I'm done?"

Then I stunned. haha. Like meeting the parent session. hehe.

Then I looked at myself, wearing jersey, shorts and sandals. Really is the most inappropriate attire to meet your prospective mother-in-law. So I decided to say "Well, I'm afraid your mum won't allow you to come out with me again if she sees me like that. I better walk around first."

Hehe. So I walked around lo.

She didn't take very long ba. It took only a while for her to call me back. Only walked one round and she called me le. hehe.

So we walked around again, finding presents and stuffs. But cannot find the crumpler store. Then we decided that maybe we should give up le ba. haha. So we went to the Ben & Jerry's place, then she just went in and went to the couple seat straight away. haha. It wasn't like there was no other place to seat lo. hehe.

It isn't technically a couple seat la. But it was a two-seater sofa lo. At least it looked like it is meant for couples. hehe. That place is really very cool. Directly in front is the fountain already. Ben & Jerry's the place for me! hehe.

Anyway, ordered the Mango Sorbet, Cherry Sorbet and Sarah's favourite, the "Cookies 'N' Creme". I also ordered one Oreo Cheesecake. =P Spent about $20 in total. hehe.

But it's ok la. We enjoyed it. Then when we sat down and looked up, there it was, the crumpler store. haha. But there's not much time to go there already le la. Quite late le. hehe.

Then she suddenly say wanna buy a card for my mum. =)

hehe. Really like a couple already. hehe. Damn happy. She's actually thinking about making my mum happy. haha. Ok. So we went to MPH (Very funny, she say go Crumpler store no time, can still go to MPH to buy birthday card?! o.O)

hehe. But then in the end, she chose a few cards for me to choose la. But then she suddenly realise that I'm colourblind. hehe. Then she like immediately picked out one card and say "Na! This one! I bet she'll like it!"

And this one! Before I knew it, she pulled out another one of those fanciful paper bags that was hanging from the holder. It'll go well with the cookies!

Ok, let me go make the payment.

"No la, let me do it. Mmm~ Take it that it's a present for aunty lo." *Killer smile.

Ok. I mean, there's nothing much that I can really do right. I think mum will be happy to receive this birthday card as well as my present ba. =)

Then she also wrote on the card lo~! Whoa sei. really like my girlfriend. hehe. so happy.

Then after that, sent her back to Harbourfront, didn't manage to send her to Sentosa, partly because she didn't wanted me to, but also because I had to go back.

In case you're wondering why she's going to Sentosa, she's not staying there. But she's working there. At one of the restaurants.

Oh, taken some photos. But it wasn't very well taken. I swear she looks 10 000 times better than what she looks like in this photo la. haha.

2007-06-27T18:59:00.000-07:00

Marching to the same pace: POP 2007 was a brilliant success.
SJ Day: The Sec threes gather for a picture.

SJ Day: KSJ Family Photo

So many things happened in the last two weeks, can vaguely remember some of the things I did, I think they are;

Badminton
POP Practice
Swimming
POP 2007 (23 June 2007)
SJ Day 2007 (27 June 2007)

Let me just highlight some of the things.

POP Practice - I don't really remember what are the happenings. But there's one incident I remember very clearly. Very funny. I was teaching the Sec 2s and Sec 1s about the "Bersu Rai!" Command.

The instructions were "If there is a flag, you'll salute once. Then if the commander is an officer, you salute again. Clear?"

They said, "Yes."

I replied, "Ok, let's practise to see if u really understand."

Then I give the command, they salute twice. Can die.

I asked "Am I officer?"

Then no reply. haha.

Then I ask again, "Am I officer?"

Then they say very softly... "No, Sir." haha. Damn funny. Call me "Sir", but I'm not officer. haha. I think my position in KSJ is very weird. Neither up nor down. Like the Sergeant in the army. Screw people, then the top people also screw up. damn jia lat. RSM is really a tough job.

Some more my role is those type of "Bao Ga Liao" RSM. Public Relations (PR) stuffs like speech-writing, newsletter, I also do. Discipline wise, I also do. haha. Two very different extremities, but I'm coping fine. Or maybe it looks fine, at least. In PR, image is very important. haha.

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POP 2007 - Congrats to all who has got promoted and passed out. Thanks for all the things that you have done for us, the KSJ family. We'll remember you.

As Sir Derrick has mentioned before. The OTC would be next on the list for those who wants to come back and help. Ya, so please go for it. Don't ask me why I didn't go. I just didn't wanted to.

There are many things in life which we want to pursue. Maybe you might not want to commit urself first. But maybe u can come back as a senior NCO to help out first. Then maybe one day u might just want to go for the OTC. Well, u never know.

Coming back, The POP went on quite smoothly except for some screws-up here and there, but it's ok, I think Mr Kong, the GOH, didn't see it. After that, the cadets went up to the AVA room for "Ceremony" stuffs and performances.

Then Sir Derrick and Mr Kong was at the foyer talking. Can see that Mr Kong is quite impressed with KSJ. (Of course.) Well, the efforts that went into making this successful, was from none other than every single one of KSJ members la. It's supposed to be like a family celebration event.

After that we played games and then was running all over the schools, looking for envelopes and clues. Haha. Didn't actually get the game at first, because we found the other group's envelopes and then actually following their clues -_-'

Then Geraldine was like "Erm, why u all go and take other's clues?"

Ok, WA LAO!! WHY U ALL NEVER EXPLAIN EARLIER?!?!?!?!

So we put back all the envelopes. Then we ran and ran again, can't really remember what we did, but we were the first to reach the last station, the fitness corner. Then they say must do Pull-up. Sian.

I only managed to do 6. haha. One more to attain Silver. But didn't want to do that much la. YongTing did 5. So we got 11 already. Ya, the required number was only 10. haha. Act Strong.

Then have to to log-raise, then lucky dun need to do Sit-up, just jump on top of the thing and then run over. Then do monkey bar, then do the body flip on the incline pull-up bar, then step on top of the individual logs and jump off the last one.

*Phew, lucky dun need to climb the Low Wall. haha. Otherwise, We'll all die.

Then.. Yeah! We were the first to finish the thing. Then got 5 bonus points. hehe. Then in the end, Tie with Ken's Group. Didn't really know what the prize was, just pass to Wei Ting and then ask her to distribute. Group 4 rocks, alright.

Not bad. I think even the Sec one Boy in our team, I think his name is Hon Man. Also quite sporting. Even though run until cannot run liao, still continue to jog a bit to catch up with us. See, we don't have officers, also can win the race. haha.

I hope to the juniors, it would be like seeing their elder brothers and sisters graduating from the KSJ Family. Also, I hope that they can use this as a form of inspiration for them. So that they will work hard.

The challenge for the cadets (Officers and Senior NCOs as well) is to make sure that the Corps continue to prosper with the new blood. Therefore, new knowledge has to continuous be drilled into the minds of the cadets.

I personally feel that during Sec One, it is more important to impart knowledge, not so much on the screwing. Of course, along the way, we make sure that they still maintain a certain level of discipline. A large part of the screwing can be left till about Sec two then we screw them. That's when we fine-tune their skills and knowledge.

By Sec three, of course, they will be invincible, or so, I hope.

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SJ Day 2007

The alram clock rang at such an unusual timing, that I thought it was malfunctioning.

In fact, it wasn't.

It's been a really long time ever since I last woke up at 5.30am in the morning. Then did my preparations and took my bag, bid my mum and dad goodbye, before I stepped out of the house at 5.55am. I knew I was going to be late, but hell.

Reached CCK at about 6.10, Ken was already waiting there. Ok, sorry Ken.

Then we went to school, everyone was there in Full-U, getting ready for the big day. Then some of the late comers also joined us. Then we did sizing, Size already then discover that actually Yong Ting and Cheung Weng dun need to be the flag bearer.

But nevertheless, didn't do much adjustments to fit them into the squad. Heng Sia.

The squad was ready by about 6.30.

Then Ken gave the signal to "warm-up" the squad and our new CSM did 8 "Ke-kanan Pusing"s in one shot. Hai~ CSM ah CSM. Warm-up got many things can do one ma. haha.

But I dun blame her la. First time do such big things ma. Then it's quite ok la. Didn't have any screws-up, but only got one question. "Do you really have to shout into the Microphone?"

Haha. *Faint.

It's ok. As I said, First-timers, can forgive.

After that, took a Corps Photo at the Foyer, finally understood why Kranji, from a "not-so-neighbourhood Neighbourhood School", became a "Very-much-neighbourhood Neighbourhood School". But I shall not comment it here.

The problematic students in the school are increasing in numbers and they are indeed, problematic. I really pity the teachers. Vindictive students will never change.

2007-06-12T21:12:00.000-07:00

Just some random writings:

Why? Why? Why do some people always get the things they want, while some, have to part with what they never had in the first place. Why..?

As he carefully lifts his legs off the bed, he also flip the blanket that had covered him and his wife. It’s 3am in the morning and it’s drizzling outside. His uniform hung on the handle of the wardrobe, almost as if reminding him of the responsibility that comes along with the rank. This would be the last time that he’ll be waking up from this bed and he knew it.

His wife, awakened by the movement, looked deeply at him. “What’s wrong, My Lord?”

“Nothing, my dear. Nothing.” He said, as he walked out of bed and towards the balcony.

He lit up his cigarette. Even the taste of the cigarette seems to be extraordinarily fragrant tonight. He watched the quiet city as he slowly puffed away.

His wife walked over and gently wrapped her arms around his waist. “My Lord, do you really have to go?”

He gently took the last puff and dropped the unfinished cigarette from the balcony. He heaved a silent sigh and turned around. “My dear. Some things are beyond my control. But this time, I chose to go this path. Let me fulfil my duty as a soldier. I promise, I’ll be back to join you with our little ones.”

Tears flowed down her cheeks; for she knows better than anyone else, how brutal those killing machines can be. The bodies of her father and brother had been horribly tore up into pieces – by hand – right before her eyes.

“My Dear, shall I not return tomorrow, tell our children how their fathers died.”

“I shall watch over you in heaven.” With that, he tucked her in his arms and ended the brief conversation with a kiss to her forehead.

2007-06-11T20:27:00.000-07:00

It's me, myself and my concert area. haha. The "Square" in front of the Makhota Shopping Centre that sells local products. haha.
Before we left - Hotel Room's Mirror
The "Square"
Their Toilet Bowl got a tube coming out from the underneath one. To wash ur butt. haha. High-tech right.

B-sized batteries lighted up our trip to KL! Whoo~!

Day 1
So the much anticipated and hype surrounded the mystery KL trip for the SinMal FAC 2007, finally took place on the 9th to 11th June 2007.

It was quite a long way from Singapore to Malaysia, or rather, Kuala Lumpur to be exact.

We went to Kenneth's house on Friday, 8th June 2007, then stayed over at his house, cos his dad's driving us to the HQ early in the morning the next day. Thanks, Uncle!

Then reached HQ at about 6. Still a bit in a daze and I think we missed some flag handing over ceremony or something. Then checked the Bus number which we are supposed to be on. (The bus number printed and the actual bus number all different one lor. Cock up) haha.

Then boarded the bus and left the HQ at about 6.30 or something. Can't remember. Then we took the bus to the second link.

The people on the bus are like, erm... quite "Lao" one la. haha. It's like almost everywhere also got old people on the bus. haha. Mah was sitting beside me and Ken was like on my left, sitting behind Mr Chua Wee Guang. haha. Ok, will tell the story of Mr Chua next time.

Then Ai Suan and Ma'am Huixin was sitting behind me and then got Sir Derrick also sitting behind Kenneth.

The first stopover was at this place called "Yong Ping". It's really like a "professional" stopover one la. Got food, petrol station, toilet, local products, etc. It's like really is for stopover one. Nothing much there. haha.

But have to admit she is quite pretty. But she really is not my cup of tea. Erm.. I mean in all sense of the words. Anyway, there's nothing much to worry about. So we ate the "Char Kway" and realised that it's purely for "Filling stomachs" only. Cos it has no taste. Very bland. Haha.

Then everybody was like spamming the cadies stalls for the Bubble Gum and chewing gum. haha. Nevertheless, only stopped for 20 mins. Then when we boarded the bus, Mah just adjusted back his seat and laid back. Then he sleep liao lei!

Wa lao~ like "睡仙" lei. haha. Hit the seat, can immediately fall asleep one. I also la. haha. Cos the bus trip very long ma, if dun sleep then how? Talk to Mr Chua ah?! haha.

Then finally reached the SJAB Malaysia HQ at about 12 in the afternoon. Then got the SJAB Malaysia people all waiting for us. haha, like president like that. Walk down the bus also got people waiting for you already. haha. Then the people all like very friendly, smile at you and then shake your hands. haha. They dunno I'm only CL. I'm NOT officer. haha.

Damn funny lei. Then we went into the "Hall" of the HQ, got so many people inside. haha.

Then I think we finally saw the "Battery". haha.

Then Mah was like "Ey, we dare Ong la. See whether he dare to go and make friends with the girl anot." Immediately I did a "Virus scan". Then I held up my "cup" of drink on the table and said "Mmm~ 这个杯子不够大" Then everybody laugh laugh laugh. haha.

Then have to wait for them to make a mini speech and all. Then the teams shake hands, introduce one another. Haha. Have to wait for the meal to be ready, so we ate the peanuts that were on the table. I think is "donated" or sponsored by someone de la. Cos the big word "Sample" is on the packaging. haha.

Then we ate and Mah was playing tricks on Kenneth by pulling the certain from the "Hall" then Simin was outside. haha. Ken, dun lie. I know u wanna see her. haha. But it's crazy lei. They make the teams sit ouside (Or rather, the teams chose to sit outside one themselves) It's 12pm in the afternoon lo. wa kao. haha.

Then after lunch, went for the city tour (meanwhile, competitors went to the Kuala Lumpur Badminton Stadium to take a look at their competition ground) brought us to so many places (Please refer to the pics)

Palace, City, etc.

Then finally went to the legendary "Hotel" reached at about 3 or 3+. Can't remember. Then Cock up again. Hotel rooms also took very long to figure out. But finally got everything ironed out and proceeded to the room. Then Filled the bath-tub and soaked inside for about 30 mins. Relax sia. haha. Then Ken was like outside watching TV.

Then at night about 6.30, went for dinner at this restaurant on top the Porsche Showroom. Wa lao~ Porsche lei. Dunno when can I buy one.

Anyway, the place is like another "out-of-the-place" place. Like jungle all over, then suddenly pop out on building. But can see the KLCC from there. By the way, KLCC refers to the Petronas Tower. Dunno why it's called KLCC.

Anyway, the dinner wasn't exactly "that nice". It was just filling. Alot of food and they come so fast one lo. Haven't finish, then the next dish all come already. haha.

Then Choon Siong was like "Ey! You really can consider the battery lei!"

then I told him, "The battery is not strong enough to power my "Torch"" haha. But really ma. Dun have feel means dun have feel. Ya la, she pretty la, but not my cup of tea ma. haha.

Then after dinner, it was drizzling and we went to the shopping place at Times Square and Sungei Wang. Oh yes, "Sungei Wang" is the Red Light district in KL! haha. But of course, being there on "Official Trip" we cannot go la. haha.

So the Bus uncle drove us there and dropped us off somewhere near the shopping centre before he was stuck in a jam. Sorry Uncle. haha.

So we went shopping in Times Square. Sir Derrick bought a new pair of jeans. Then he show off lor. haha. Like what. One pair of jeans big ah. haha. Oh yes, we'll always remember the "Big Jeans" joke. haha.

Then I bought a new pair of shoes for my brother from Times Square. haha.So happy sia, finally spent some money. haha.

Then Mah also bought some "couple couple stuffs". haha.

Then this Times Square very special lei. Shopping halfway, got roller-coaster fly past above your head one lei! So cool right. haha. but it was too late for us already, cos by the time we wanna play is already about 10 already. haha.

No choice lor. Walk back in the rain, then halfway through, Ken bought some fishballs and we bought some other stuffs for Supper. Then everyone came to Ken and my room to eat supper lo. It's like they stained my bed can. haha.

I think the room service auntie must be like, "Ey! why is the bed stained ah?" haha.

Mmm~ Each person 2 chicken wings?! Enough! haha. Ya lor. Enough... your head ah. haha. Then Ai Suan had to treat supper the next day. hehe.

Then Derrick Sir said something else that cancelled the deal. Thanks ah, Sir. You caused us to "lose" our supper treat. haha.

Then after that, we played some cards and went to sleep le.

Day 2
Woke up at about 6.30. Then went to eat breakfast. haha. Was in a daze la. But the moment we saw the "Battery" We're like so alive. haha. Then I think took a bit took much, cannot finish. haha. Then we went to back to our room to change and got ready to go to the competitioon ground. haha.

Then we waited outside the Stadium for quite a while before they led us to the spectator stand to sit. Then the Malaysian competitors walked in lo. haha. Damn special. Their girls wear like Safari uniform and pants one lei. Then the guys pretty much the same as Singapore's Ambulance teams.

Whoa~ got a few girls quite pretty lei! haha. But then, I didn't forget my objective in coming la. So Mah was watching the First Aid cases. Kenneth was watching the Home Nursing. Me, of course, was outside watching foot drill. Why only me under the sun! WTF! haha.

They are all in watching the competition and with the air-con one lor! haha. No choice la. Where got people do Footdrill indoors one. haha. But the Malaysian teams really good lei. Their footdrill damn solid. Somemore they speak in Malay to the judges one lei! I heard from my Malaysian colleagues that they have to be good in Malay. Cos in Malaysia, if u fail ur Malay Language (by the way, every student has to take Malay Language in Malaysia. Yes, even when u are Chinese or Indian or whatever), it's as good as failing everything.

Coming Back, Singapore teams got some problems. I also dunno what happened. Commanding got some problems ba. Then the ACC was watching them la. Then the Singaporean NA Team got footdrill commit one error lei. Then the ACC's face black until cannot. haha. then he turned and walk away lo. Wa lao~ dun like that ma. just continue watching la. no need to walk away one ma.

Then after that, the results announcement, NC and NA Team own Malaysia. The NA team that committed the mistake during Footdrill got "Best Footdrill" By the way. I watched all the 8 teams lor(Singapore - NA, NC, AA, AC & also Malaysia NA, NC, AA, AC) . No teams ever committed mistakes. The only team that committed a mistake got the "Best Footdrill". Haha.

Reverse Psychology.

Anyway, went for lunch at the restaurant that provided the cater service at the HQ on the first day. Eat a bit, then Mah said "Ey, I think Malaysia got bird flu hor?!"

I looked down at the 3 big pieces of Chicken on my plate and I was like, "Now then u tell me"

You should have told me just now before I took it ma! Or after I finish eating also can ma! Wa lao. haha.

After that, went outside of the restaurant, to the shops beside it cos Ken wants to buy some flu medicine. After that then discovered the uncle scam him, cos we discovered it's "Panadol Soluble" for general treatment one lo. After that, we went back to the hotel lo.

Then rot for a while. Soak in the bath tub again, Ken also. haha. I mean, separate la. I soak first. Then I got out, then Ken went in. Erm~ I think this doesn't really sound correct too. But anyway...

We decided to go out for Dinner, while the Sing-Ma people went out to eat at the restaurant for some "Thank you dinner" or something. Then we started eating at about 7, at the "Beijing Roast Duck Restaurant that was opposite the Hotel" Thanks to the rain, we got to eat the Roast Duck.

Wa Piang~ It's Damn Freaking nice one, can. haha. Wrap in the Popiah Skin, then the roast duck skin put in between, then add the sauce. Whoa~ Nothing has ever tasted so nice one. haha.

Then we discovered that the bus for the Sing-Ma people is still parked outside. haha. we almost finished the dinner liao, the bus still haven't left the hotel! Haha.

The dishes we ate included "Beijing Roast Duck skin (wrapped in popiah skin and with sauce), then the duck meat fried with cucumber, duck bone soap, then we also order "糖醋炒白菜" and "古老肉" aka sweet and sour pork).

Then we ran back to the hotel. The rain was so heavy. Cos by the time we ran back to the hotel's lobby, which was only one street away, our shirt was soaked with the rain water. Really soaked. And we quickly went back to the Hotel and took a bath.

Waited till about 9++ then we went out to buy supper again. haha. KL's Supper rocks, man! Wa lao~ bought Stingray, Chicken Wings (again), Hokkien Mee, Fried Kway Teow (Dry and wet), then bought beer also. haha. Then Huixin Ma'am and Ai Suan took Root Beer.

Sir FJ himself, say wanna buy an extra can of black beer, aka ABC Beer. haha. Then after we drank the Tiger Beer each, Sir was like "Cannot drink" already. haha.

So we went back to our rooms individually and went to sleep. So sleepy and tired.

Day 3
So on the third day, woke up as usual, went for breakfast. Last chance to getting to know the battery, but didn't use the chance. haha.

Ate the more "normal stuffs" didn't take too much food this time round, but still got some leftovers. Ugly Singaporeans. Haha.

Then we went back and pack our bags and got ready to leave lo.

Then the bus brought us to buy some chocolates at dunno somewhere la. Bought some chocolates back for the Office people, then bought one "Durian Chocolate" for mum. Then a few more boxes la. Intending to give someone de. (But mum accidentally opened it and gave to her friends! the Aunties!!!) Heart pain. Tiramisu Chocolates lei......

Damn expensive can........ When I knew it, I was like........... AH~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Then Ken spent quite a bit lei. Wa lao~ we put together our purchases so can claim one free bag. but he buy so much, he himself can claim one bag already. haha.

Anyway, after we bought the chocolates, we went to the Makhota shopping centre at the Malacca. Bought some "local products" in the shopping centre. Weird right. Dunno why buy the local products at a shopping centre. Anyway, the shopping experience there was like. haha.

Another Vivo city in Malaysia, But this one is bigger. Cos got three storeys. Then saw the "battery" quite a few times. Keep bumping into her even when the place is do damn big. Then Mah bought more stuffs again. Wa lao~ buy and buy. So many things. haha.

Then we also saw the actor, Edmund Chen Zhi Cai... But the other one we saw was really shocking. We saw our secondary school friend, Mr Oh Keng Sheng!!! What the hell. He and his girlfriend is there lol. On Holiday. haha.

Whoa~ didn't know that he has a girlfriend like that. haha. Ok, I wasn't referring to anything. Didn't meet him in Singapore but still can see him in Malacca. haha. Fated.

Then Sir Derrick also bought stuffs for his wife. haha.

I also spent my last bit of money on the local products already. only 10 cent ringgit left. haha.

Then after that went to eat KFC. Ken's treat. Thanks, Ken. haha. Then after that went back to the bus and took a photo outside the Shopping centre. haha.

After that, went back to the bus and then went back to Singapore. Before that, stopped over at Yong Ping (again) for the last time. haha. Then we reached back at HQ at about 7+ or 8 + at night. haha.

Then so late le, wanna take cab home, the Battery also took a cab haha. with her family. Then we watched her cab turned round the corner and "Shoo~!" off she went.

Bye, battery, we'll miss you. By the way, haven't got her name. dunno what's her name. haha.

Reach home and went to the office the next day. Work again...

2007-06-07T19:37:00.000-07:00

I just realised how “unfeeling” I can be.

I don’t wear my heart on my sleeves, so I choose to hide it deep. I don’t show expressions as often like I did in the past. Devoid of feelings? Probably.

There hasn’t been much of a “feelings”.

In the past 3 years, nothing much has really made me heart raced. There hasn’t been too much of an “excitement” through my contact with everyone. Who would have thought that this unfeeling guy is still reminiscing about the past?

Yes, I hide it deep inside my heart. But I do take “occasion dumps” when the feeling’s too much to bear. Unfortunately, this blog has become the dumping ground.

If you think I’m going to think of that lady again, you’re wrong. I’ve not forgotten about her, yes. But I try not to think about her. Her face has just became a blurred vision in my mind. Ever since we parted 3 years ago, I only saw her once.

Maybe it’s fate. Maybe we’re not meant to see each other. Or is it heaven just being kind, carefully letting me avoid her.

Whatever it is, will be going to Malaysia soon. This Friday going to stay over at Ken’s house together with the rest. What to do there at night? So bored. Haha. Play Mahjong! Haha.

SinMal competition. First time attending. Thanks to Ken for helping take the (Ugly) Yellow shirt. Thanks Mah, for washing my shirt. Haha. Left a shirt with him, forget to take back.

Congrats, buddy. You’ve all found your loved ones. Dun worry. I’m alright. I’m not gay, just single and NOT desperate. Haha. Ok, ok. Let’s stop this.